Just an update real quick

Keep switching between 170 and 171. Still feel a lot chubbier these days though. I'm always surprised when my weight doesn't reflect everything I'm noticing. Maybe I'm just late with noticing? lol

Anyway, I just got a new computer and my best friend is in town from Cali! w00t! So I'm just sort of enjoying life and eating as much as I can..lol I'm still chugging olive oil.. directly from the bottle now.. ha I'm hardcore bitch.

I'm hoping to get to 172 soon so it will be time for measumrents again.

Wish me luck!

Other than that, fightning my depression/anxiety thing again. It's resulted in the house being a mess and me not having the laundry done. I think things could be worse. Latas.

Week 22: Holiday Gaining-- 35 lbs up!

I really don't feel like I've been eating that much buttttt then again, I could be wrong. I've put on a couple new pounds.

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)
Day 136: 169 lbs (19 weeks)
Day 139: 170 lbs
Day 149: 171 lbs (21 weeks)

Day 151: 172 lbs (21 weeks)

Week 21, Day 7: Cookie Party

Well, I thought I'd go ahead and update on the cookie party I was concerned about. Nothing really happened. I'm sure they noticed I gained but no one said anything. Weird thing is, those girls are so skinny! So for the first time, I felt like the fat one ya know? And at one point I bumped into something because I misjudged my size through the doorway. *sigh* That happens A LOT actually. I'm so used to slipping through little spaces! But that doesnt' really happen anymore.



We made lots of cookies though, it was pretty fun. Good wine too... and my sweetie and I walked a block and got pizza for everyone. Plus, it was in a really cool neighborhood of Cleveland called Little Italy. It always feels just a little bit magical over there. I yikes. =)

Aside from that, I slowed down on my gaining because I felt like I was growing.. a lot and I got scared! lol Today I was back to 169 though. I swear the olive oil makes me grow but doesn't increase my actual weight as much. I won't know if that's true until I take my measurements again though, which I'll do when I hit 172.. which I'm feeling ready to do. I'm going to try and splurge the next few days.. and I have lots of days off coming up! Which should really help. =)

Also, my sweetie said she wants to gain with me over the holidays.. ha I don't know if she really will, but I do know she can't resist cookies at all! lol

Happy holidays everyone. =)

Week 21, Day 4: 170 pics

Well, seems like everyone wants pics pics pics so here's a few new ones. 170 again this morning. =)



Pic2: Coat on before going out to eat
Pic3: new shirt, upper body pic
Pic4: turned
Pic5: Full side view pic
Pic6: Mandatory Belly pic

Week 21, Day 2: Worry About Reactions

So tonight I'm going to a cookie party and I'm going to see at least 2 people who haven't seen me in months. I have to admit I just feel a little weird because they are probably going to notice that I put on about 30 lbs I would think.

I even saw my friend Maddi last night and I was telling her about how I'm gaining on purpose, and I mentioned how I look at before pictures and it's hard to even notice anything and she was like, "Oh no, you can definately tell. You look different." and I was like oh.. okay And my friend Denise said again that I look better and that I hold it well, so that was nice of her. =)

Oh well, I'm not ashamed so I just need to be confident. I gained weight. I have curves now. I'm sexy. Get over it. ha =)

169 again this morning. Still getting lots of olive oil.

Olive Oil: Not Just For Drinking

One of my friends gave me the idea to rub olive oil on my body too. They said you can pretty much absorb anything through your skin. I didn't realize how true that was until I thought about it. I mean, isn't that why things like nicotine patches work?

So I googled olive oil and check out this link. Basically, rubbing olive oil on you is very very good for you! Fascinating. I think I will start doing this. =)

http://www.naturalskincaresecrets.com/olive-oil-skin-care.html


Olive oil will...

Promote a smooth, radiant complexion
Help maintain elasticity of skin
Heal dry, brittle nails and soften cuticles
Condition and add shine to hair

Seems like it's silly NOT to do it if you ask me.

I wonder if you can put it where you want to gain too? I haven't found anything that says you'll gain weight from putting it on your skin though.

Things I've Noticed Since Gaining

I've been meaning to make this post for awhile. I just want to keep track of things I notice cuz out of nowhere I sometimes realize things or notice things that have changed from my gaining and I dunno, it's kinda cool... most of the time anyway!

Things I've Noticed So Far:

1.) My hands have grown. My ring wouldn't fit on my ring finger anymore and I had to switch it to my pinky. It's also harder to bend my fingers all the way. I can feel new fat in the way! Also, veins used to show on the top of my hands sometimes and now they don't at all, which is nice. I just noticed this in the last week.

2.) My butt is bigger. Underwear is fitting differently and when I walk, it feels much different. Gotta say I like it though! One thing that might be kinda gross though, is I definitely sweat in my crack more now though.. ha

3.) My thighs are rubbing together when I walk. It gets sweatier in there now too.

4.) All of my old pants are too tight on me now..lol I have 2 new pairs of pants right now that I can wear comfortably.

5.) My arms are thicker too. There is new fat under my armpits and on my arm in the same area. Also, I used to have really athletic skinny arms and sometimes the viens would show there and definitely muscle definition, but now you don't ever see veins and they aren't as muscular. Oh, and when I bend them I can really tell! The crease is more defined and the new fat pushes off to the side.

That's all on that for now. =)

I was 168 this morning again. I swear it's the weirdest thing, because I can tell that I'm fatter without a doubt, but my weight stays the same or even goes down if I don't eat a lot. I guess this is how olive oil does it? Anyway, I didn't much the last couple days so I think I'm going to go for 3,500 again today with 1,500 of that being monounsaturated fat. I'll keep track of my calories in this entry.

PB sandwich = 345 cal (100 mono fat)

**lost track but I think I ended up around 3,000

Week 20, Day 5: 2nd Goal Reached!

Well, I've hit my second goal of being 170. Hard to believe I'm here! I guess this whole oil thing is working for gaining. I'm still anxious to see if my fat distribution is changing too. Guess we'll find out when I do my new measurements at 172. =)

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)
Day 136: 169 lbs (19 weeks)
Day 139: 170 lbs


Honestly, I'm pumped to gain more right now, but I probably should slow down for a couple days and let my body catch up. I'm still going to make sure I eat about 40% monounsaturated fat though. =) But let's just say that thanks to olive oil, I won't have any trouble eating tons of calories from now on. =)

Week 20, Day 4: I ate A LOT yesterday

Yah, so somehow I ended up eating 4,020 calories yesterday. That is probably the most in my whole life...lol

If I don't gain from these last 3 days I will be stunned.

12/10 - 3,350 calories
12/11 - 3,725 calories
12/12 - 4,020 calories
Amount to stay same weight: 1600 calories

Yah... so I basically overate 6295 calories. That should equal out to almost 2 lbs of gain. I was 169 this morning. 169.4 actually so I guess that's right on.

Can you believe I'm .6 lbs away from 170?



Calories today 12/13:
double black bean burger w/cheese & soymilk = 580 cal
straight olive oil = 480 (it really is kind of good once you get used to it)
Large Avacado w/fresh squeezed lemon juice and vinegar = 370 calories
Pop and skittles = 490 calories
len-chili soup w/feta = 290
1 pita with hummus = 465
1 serving tabouli = 130
straight olive oil = 240 calories
cereal = 220 calories

Total : 3,205

Week 20, Day 3: Got a new pound =)

Met my goal yesterday and well, I was 169 this morning! That's pretty exciting. I didn't even really eat much before bed so that's a good sign. We'll see if it sticks to tomorrow.

I Feel Like I'm Gaining
I also checked some measurements yesterday because I could swear I felt some gaining even though my body wasn't reflecting it. Like seriously, my hands are chubbier. I am really noticing. And my arms too. Like when I bend my arm there's some fat coming out of the side and the crease looks much more defined and my butt is feeling a lot bigger too. Plus, my girlfriend said my booty looked bigger and she noticed love handles on me for the first time yesterday. Just all these signs!

Quick measurements show some growth from my new diet (so far)!
I figured, maybe the olive oil is doing what it's supposed to and turning into subcutaneous fat and going other places instead of my waist and belly? Well, even though the measurements I took are only ONE WEEK since last time. I showed that I LOST a 1/2" on my waist, gained 1/4" on my belly (I am noticing more softness on the sides), 1/2" on my booty, and 3/4" new on my thigh.. which on a thigh.. that's a lot! ESPECIALLY in a week. I don't know if my measurements are right on, but it certainly seems like this new diet is working. We won't know for sure until a lot more time passes though.

About Good/Soft Fat
But my sweetie and I were talking about monounsaturated fat and stuff and she made a good point. She understands "good fat" which is basically monounsaturated fat like olive oil to be fat that doesn't turn solid at room temperture, while "bad fat" like butter for exmpale and saturated fats are thicker and harder fats. And that makes sense cuz I was reading about how oils turn into the "softer fat" and that's why it ends up stored just under the skin and goes to hips, and butt, and arms and pretty much all over, while the other "hard fat" is the kind that stores itself among your organs, which increases risk for a lot of bad stuff.

Anyway, I'm excited. It seems to be working so far. I just drank the last of my peanut oil on my lunch, so I have to go buy some more after work today. hee =) Yes, I know how silly I am.

Oh, and here's my classic gaining update with my new pound:

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)
Day 136: 169 lbs (19 weeks)

My calories are 2,660 so far today (it's 545pm)

Week 20, Day 2: Almost did it, let's try again

Well, I had a goal and I failed! But not by much at least. I ate 3,350 calories so I was barely short of my goal... and 1,320 of that was monounsaturated fat so that's good.. definately 40%. So I was really close. Weird that I was still 168 this morning though.

I'm totally pumped to try again today though. Same goal: 3600 calories, 40% monounsaturated fat... I'll probably have to go to the store and get more olive oil.. extra virgin this time.

What I'm Noticing Lately
I feel like my body is getting softer and expanding but my weight isn't going up. I don't know if that's true or what, but I know for sure that I couldn't get my ring on for the first time. That kinda sucks, but it's kinda awesome? I mean, it used to be so loose it fell off all the time! I'm also noticing that that new pair of bigger jeans I bought FITS now. Ummm they were too big when I bought them. I haven't tried on my old jeans in awhile... maybe I should see if I can even get in them anymore.

But anyway, keeping track of my calories again today, Thursday Dec 11th:

Morning
coffee (10 cal)

Lunch
double black bean burger w/cheese = 480 cal
2 cups egg nog = 680 cal (30% monounsat fat, 200 cal )
peanut oil straight, 4 tbsp = 480 cal (pure monounsat fat)
Skittles, 1/4 cup = 170 cal

Snack
Walnuts, 1 serving = 185 cal (15 cal monounsat fat)
coke = 140 cal

Dinner
bhindi masala, 1 serving = 180 cal
aloo gobi, 1 serving = 250 cal
basmati rice, 1.5 cups = 300 cal
naan 1/2 = 150 cal

Before Bed
Egg nog, 1 cup = 340 cal (95 cal monounsat fat)
peanut oil, 3 tbsp = 360 cal (pure monosat fat)

Total Calories: 3,725 cal (GOAL: 3,600)
Total Monounsat Fat: 1,150 cal (goal: 1,440)

Over 3,600 this time! Wish I did a lil better on monosat fat, but that's okay.. still good. Now... will I weigh more in the morning? I swear I still feel myself expanding.. i'm feeling it in my butt and my hands. It's weird. Is it real or am I imaging it?

Pic Update: 30 lbs up

I'm off today and so I haven't showered and I'm still in my PJ's past noon, heh, but I shot some pics to show my progress. I'm feeling kinda chubby. I yikes =)

You can see our little doggie Lulu in this one (by accident!) ha...







I might do some comparisons soon too. See if there's any big changes. =)

Here's a pic tho from when I was 137. Yah, big difference.

Week 20, Day 1: Time to Eat!!

I'm setting a goal for myself today on calories. I'm thinking it's going to be easy considering I can just drink olive oil if I fall short. ha!

I need 1,600 calories a day to maintain my weight. So I'm going to eat 2,000 more than that today. That should give me a gain of 4/7 of a pound in one day. That's pretty good for one day! So I'm going to give that a shot. 3,600 is my goal. =) That's seriously a lot for me.

Oh, and the second part of my goal is for 40% or 1,440 of the calories to be monounsaturated fat. I think I can do it. I'm just going to continually update what I eat today.

So here we go!

Breakfast
Hash Browns w/cheese, veggies & peanut oil = 590 cal
Egg Nog, 1 cup = 340 cal

Supplement
Straight Olive Oil, 1/4 cup = 480 cal

Lunch
Pesto & Whole Grain Rotini = 550 cal (360 monounsat fat)
soymilk, 1 cup = 110 cal
Skittles = 170 cal
Green Tea = 0 cal

Light Dinner
PB sandwich = 400 cal (130 monounsat fat)
Egg Nog, 1 cup = 340 cal
Apple = 70 cal

Snack
cereal w/soymilk = 300 cal

*THEN I FEEL ASLEEP FOR THE NIGHT! DOH!

Total: 3,350 cal (goal: 3,600 cal)
Monounsat Fat : 1,320 cal (goal: 1,440 cal)

By the way, I was 168 this morning. =) That ties my current high weight.

Week 19, Day 7: Here We Go aGain... har

I'm really feeling ready to gain again.

I ordered my fav indian food and ate as much as I could for lunch. Then I drank about 600 calories of olive oil. So far my body has been handling the oil great! I'm hoping that I'm absorbing it nicely but probably won't know for sure for awhile...

I was 167 again this morning which is good. I'm at a plateau which usually happens right before a spike.. and considering I probably had about 2,000 calories for lunch and I only need 1,600 calories in an entire day to maintain my weight, I forsee a gain in the near future. =)

Also, strangely, I'm starting to notice my thighs rubbing together a little when I walk. Weird. I like it though!

Week 19, Day 6

Well, I'm getting pretty good at drinking olive oil.. ha I can't think of a better way to get monounsaturated fat. I just pour a little in a spoon.. sip it in my mouth.. swallow... repeat. At first I was grossed out and almost gagged and now I'm kinda liking how it tastes. I'm going to keep doing more. I'm tempted to do like 1,000 calories at once of just olive oil! I don't know if that would be healthy, probably.. but I'm just so curious if anything would happen I guess?



I haven't been focusing on gaining too much lately, but I have been focusing on this shift in my diet to lower carbs and higher monounsaturated fats.. and the carbs I am eating are better carbs too... like I'm cutting down candy and pop big time, but still eating some whole grain pasta, whole grain rice, and wheat bread. Drinking more soymilk too and drinking olive oil daily.. ha

I started this switch a week ago tomorrow. I'm hoping that after a couple months there might be some change in my fat distribution. I know other factors are way stronger but it should be interesting to see if it really has an effect. =)

Have a good night!

Week 19, Day 4: Booty pic! heh

I never do this but I love this pic sooo might as well.



My butt is definately growing. I don't think my measurements of it are really reflecting all the growth because where I really feel it and notice it is more towards my thighs, and I measure at the middle point. Even still, I've expanded over 3 inches at the middle point. You can see my thighs are filling in too and even my fingers look chubbier! (they are, definately..I love them so much more!)

ummmmmm other than that... 167 again this morning. That's good. Don't want to go too fast and I'm definitely gaining still. Doing good eating less carbs and lots of monounsaturated fats too. I really hope we see a difference from that in a few weeks. I hope I hope I hope... if not, at least it's probably healthier.

Also, been getting depressed again lately. I'm such a rollercoaster I swear.

162 to 167 lb measurements

Well, here's what I got from my latest 5 lbs. So weird how it's different every time.


INCHES FROM MOST RECENT 5 LB GAIN
Hips 1.25"
Waist (relaxed) 1.00"

Bellybutton 0.75"
Booty 0.50"
Arm 0.50"
Bust 0.25"
Thigh 0.25"

Neck -0.50"


While I'm glad some went to my hips that's still a lot on my waist! And I'm glad it disappeared from my neck again. =) I could have sworn more went to my booty than that.. seriously, I feel a big difference. oh wells. =)

Here's how my percentages have been growing.



And I was 168 today, so I'm at 31 lbs up now. wow And ya know today, I can feel myself gaining. I don't know if I really can feel it or what, but I get this feeling sometimes, like I feel bloated or it's almost a tingling and I feel myself expanding ever so slightly. I swear I feel it today. I wouldn't be surprised if I hit another high weight tomorrow.... maybe this oil is way more effective than I thought.. hmmm

Still not chubby though!

Oh I also wanted to mention that where I measure at my armpits.. that is so weird. My chest actually isn't getting bigger there.. or maybe a little.. its mostly under my arm pits where I'm getting fat. My mom has that. ugh! I wish you got to choose where you want it to go. I would give myself the most sexy pear shape ever..ha

Week 19, Day 3: 168! thank you olive oil

Well, I've been doing really good with upping my monounsaturated fats and lowering my carbs. Some people have requested to know what I eat in a day so I'll do yesterday for ya. =)

Morning:
1 glazed donut
1 choc chip cookie
1 glass of soymilk

Lunch:
1 Salad w/mediterranean dressing (lots of olive oil)
1 peanut butter sandwich
1 tall glass of soymilk
2 servings of Italian bread dipped in olive oil (w/spices)
1 hot green tea (no sugar or cream)

Dinner:
1 spicy black bean burger w/cheese, mustard and jalepenos
1 glass of soymilk
2 servings of Italian bread dipped in olive oil (w/spices)
1/2 serving of skittles

**I also drank some straight peanut oil.. about 240 calories worth

I know, it doesn't seem like I ate that much. That's what I thought too. And I took a big nap in the middle of the day so I really only ate 2 meals. But I was a pound heavier this morning! My heaviest yet! I think its because the oil is sooo heavy in calories I actually ate more calories than usual, but it just doesn't seem like it.

So here's an update on my weight gain...

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)

I also did my measurements yesterday so I'll share those soon and do some more pics probably to see what new changes there are. I think I'm also going to do an update on all the changes I've noticed from my gain so far cuz there's a lot by now! Oh, and maybe an entry on how different people have reacted to my gain.

My weight gain by month!

This is kinda cool. =)


Year 2008
Aug 1st - 137 lbs
Sept 1st - 147 lbs
Oct 1st - 155 lbs
Nov 1st - 160 lbs
Dec 1st - 167 lbs

Yikes!

I have to admit looking at this. I'm proud of myself. I did what I wanted to do and I found the courage to do even more. =) Feels good.

Can Diet Effect Fat Distribution?

I've been kinda wondering about this and looking up articles and it seems like genetics and hormones have the biggest impact on fat distribution, but diet may have an impact as well.

The studies I read seemed to deal with people with diabetes so to be honest, I'm not sure if this applies to those who don't have diabetes, but I did learn that there is two types of body fat.

Visceral Fat is the fat that tends to store around the organs of the body so this is in the abdominal and tummy region. So this contributes more to apple shape.
Subcutaneous Fat is fat that lies just under the skin. I'm guessing this is the fat that feels softer and is located more in areas like hips, thighs, arms, etc... so this contributes more to pear shape.



Visceral fat, I understand, is also worse for you because it is linked to disease more. Sooo that's not cool.

I seem to be getting more visceral fat than subcutaneous fat, and I would like to change that as much as possible. I enjoy the subcutaneous fat much more! Well, according to the studies, a high monosaturated fat diet is linked with more subcutaneous fat distribution and high-card diets are more linked with the apple-shape, visceral fat type stuff.


***this pic is not me by the way! I just like graphics!

Well, I'm guessing most of my gaining was on carbs.. especially candy..heh and bread and rice. If I could lower my carbs a bit and add more monosaturated fat.. which is more olive oil I think, I'll be better off and plus it will be interesting to see if my distribution starts to change. That would be pretty neat. =)

So anyway, my plan is to identify some foods/meals that are high in monosaturated fat and some that are high in carbs so I can alter my diet to fit this plan. For example, I think salad is going to be a good pick. Lots of olive oil can be used in the dressing, and there won't be many carbs. High protein foods with lots of oil will probably be good too. Basically, I'll probably need to oil like everything ever.. heh

This could be fun though.

Well, co-workers are noticing!

Yah, it's confirmed. You can't really gain 30 lbs when you're skinny and expect people not to notice. One of my co-workers asked me today if I'm trying to gain weight. I guess my telling people I was doing it on purpose spread around for her to ask that right? So I told her yep, I'm gaining and that I gained 30 lbs so far. She said she noticed it in my belly! lol Yah, there is a lot there..heh

Also, another co-worker told me he couldn't tell. I don't know if he was being nice or not. He is a really nice type of boy.

I do wish the weight would spread out more though and not go mostly to my belly. I found a study on fat distribution being effected by what foods you eat. I'm going to research that more. Could be something to try! Use my diet to put more weight in my hips. Sounds fun. =) Well, latas.. have a great day =)

Also, I was 167 again today... 2nd day in a row. =) I didn't even eat last night! I fell asleep! Sooo it's sticking. =)

Week 18, Day 5: new high weight- 167 lbs

Well, I'm officially 30 lbs heavier. Dang that took a long time! My body's been fighting me lately I swear. It's been really hard to gain or even eat a lot, but I'm not the type to give up so I'm still chuggin. =)

Reached a new high of 167 lbs. Just 3 lbs away from 170. whoa

That's also another month of gaining. I started August 1st. I guess that's 4 months so far, 30 lbs. That's a pretty good rate right? I don't want to go super fast or anything.

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)

And yummm.. totally ate at an Indian buffet for lunch. My boss bought cuz I've been doing good lately. =)



Oh, and I did my measurements by the way, but then was back down to 165 the next day so I'm going to wait until I'm 167 or higher 3 days in a row like normal, and redo them. I could tell too. They weren't as significant as usual sooo stay tuned. Those will be coming out soon.

Week 18, Day 1: 166 lbs... 29 lbs up!

Well, I've been 166 the last 3 days in a row (including today) so I think I'm going to go ahead and do my 30 lb measurements since I have the time today. =)

Should be interesting! I've felt a lot more in my booty lately so I'm interested to see if the measurements reflect that. =)

Plus, I'm pretty sure I'm going to jump more than a pound in the next few days.

And more pics...

I was 166 again today... that's the first I was 166 2 days in a row. I'm getting very close to that 30 lb mark! Almost time for new measurements. =) I feel a new softness around my entire body at this point.. It's really nice actually. Love how it feels. =)

And now the pics...









I look pretty chubby in that last pic don't I? Some angles I look more chubby than others. Guess it's like that for everyone tho.

Week 17, Day 6: More pics

I took a lot of pics so here's some more. =)





I don't know if I look "chubby" yet, but my belly is definately bigger, that's for sure.



I definately like my face better. =)

Also, 166 this morning. =) So I'm still gaining. Gotta keep eating! It's been kinda hard lately.. don't know why? Could be the anti-biotics I'm on.. friggin bronchitus.

Just a new pic

God, I'm starting to look pregnant aren't I?



Anyway, I took a lot more pics tonight so I'll post more when I'm not so sleepy. =) g/night.

Love this video. =)

Well, while I'm waiting to gain more, thought I'd share this video. Love it! Except for the end anyway. Hope you enjoy. =)

Week 17: When It Starts To Add Up

Not really making progress lately. *sighs* I just need to eat more, but I keep getting busy and forgetting. I was 164 still this morning. I'll fix this though, don't worry.

But I have been noticing things a lot more lately.. little changes.. like how the only pair of jeans that isn't super tight on me are the new ones I bought! And I put on an old pair of boy shorts I have and they were tight on my legs. THEY WERE ALWAYS LOOSE BEFORE. So I guess that proves my thighs and booty are in on this.

My girlfriend said my bra was tight this morning. And I've noticed my hands are fuller now. Which I actually really like! But it's getting harder and harder to take off my ring which used to be so loose it would almost fall off by itself. It's weird too how right when I gain new pounds I feel it in my neck. I really do, but then if I wait, the fat disperses through my body. I think its still going to my chest this time, and belly area.

And that was the other thing I noticed. I mean, looking the mirror this morning I was just like whoa.. I've definately gained a lot. I mean my belly sticks out for sure. There is no way people are not noticing that. And from the side sometimes I feel sad. I don't know. I kinda prided myself on being skinny and well, no one has complemented me on how thin I am in quite awhile... gee I wonder why that is.. maybe cuz I'm not thin anymore? lol

But I'm loving a lot about this. I like being softer. I like the experience. I like my face way better! I like my chest, legs and my belly could be a little smaller but that's okay. I dunno.. this whole thing is just so crazy.

Week 17, Day 1: Lets Get This Party Started

Okay, so I'm stalling out at 164 lbs lately and I pretty much know why. I budget my money for every 2 weeks and I ran out fast the first part of November. Sooo now I have moneys again and its time to load up on snacks!

I'm going to run to the store today and get some donuts, cookies, bread (to eat w/olive oil), CHEESECAKE, salad (again olive oil is high in calories!) and lots of candy (I can eat even when i'm totally full). So that combined with some pizza and indian food splurges should get me past 167 and I can do new measurements again. yay =)

My gain by percent growth

This is pretty interesting. =)



I'm still eating a lot and I was 165 this morning. Wow, 167 and it will be time for measurements again.. my 30 gain lb measurements! That's a lot.

Its funny cuz I met my sister for lunch yesterday. She's the same height as me (5'8") and she lost like 15 lbs for her wedding. Wellll, she's gaining it back now and I just to reassure her that she looks great, even better with the weight back but of course, I guess people expect you to say that. I asked her what she weighed though and she said 163 to 165 and she was stunned when I said "me too!" She's so used to me being the skinny one. She's been jealous of my skinniness our whole lives.. seriously. So she was like, "what???" and then she poked my arm and said she thought she noticed a little more than usual.. and then poked my belly and told me she felt pudge.. ha! omg

I felt kinda embarrassed but happy too. I told her I really like what I've gained so far and she told me interestingly enough that the weight she's gaining back is going in different places, this time more in her butt and thighs... she's still 5 lbs less than what she started at before she dieted for her wedding and she already grew out her new pants she bought after she lost the weight. ha poor girl, but I know the feeling. I can only fit comfortable in 1 pair of jeans and I just bought them!

so anyway... fun times =)

Week 16, Day 2: OFFICIALLY OVERWEIGHT

I ate as much as I could yesterday and I guess it paid off. I got a nice spike. I was 166 lbs this morning which brings me to a 29 lb gain! Yikes! Some of it won't stick I'm sure, but still, pretty cool. And this puts me at BMI 25.0 which means... I'M OFFICIALLY OVERWEIGHT! yikes!!!

I still dunno if I feel overweight though.. just like.. almost chubby.. i dunno.. still not there

This is my weight gain just from October 1st.. and my goal of 170 is at the top there.



My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Week 16, Day 1: Getting Chubbier

Yah, I'm definitely getting chubbier. I've been holding steady at 163 these past couple days so I should be exceeding my new highest weight ever (164 lbs) very soon!

I found a before pic of me from about two years ago when I was pretty skinny... 143 lbs and I have the same shirt, so I put it on for some after pictures to see if there's a difference from 20 more lbs.

You can judge for yourself.

Before Pic: 143 lbs


After Pic: 163 lbs


And here's a comparison of just my face.




To be fair, I think that angle makes me look pretty chubby in that 2nd pic! There are things I like and things I don't like about the new weight on me. I like how I'm softer for example, and I like my thighs better, and my chest better and my face better... but then there are things I don't like very much too.. like how most of my weight goes to my belly and not enough to my hips, and how there's so much in my neck. Yuck! And its harder to kneel down! I know that sounds weird. It's not "hard" for me to kneel but I can definitely feel the new weight getting in my way. I guess you notice when you've been a stick your whole life.

And then of course the societal stuff. I feel uglier sometimes.. not that I feel ugly, but I perceive that others don't think I'm as attractive anymore. Friends tell me I look "healthier" but I have this feeling that they are really saying more than that when I'm not around. I dunno. I've had them reminding me of how jealous they were about my skinniness for too long.

I think overall I'm really enjoying this though. I've never really planned on keeping all the weight I gain and I'm still planning on losing some when I'm done. So far I think I feel best right at 150 lbs. We'll see though. =)

Anyway, enough on that. It's past midnight. Good night!

Celebrity Weight Gain: Charlotte Church

You guys probably already know this, but Charlotte Church is a famous Welsh singer-songwriter, actress and television presenter. And she also put on some serious weight gain. I'm obviously fascinated by weight gain, and so celebrity weight gain is pretty fascinating to me, since pictures are actually available online. =)

It's definately featured in other blogs as an obviously negative thing, but of course I think its positive and awesome. Here are some progressive pics of her weight gain.



Dang she was skinny!






She's also pregnant in this pic too actually








And as for me. I've been sticking at 163 the past few days and I ate a huge lunch, so I'm expecting to hit a new high pretty soon. =)

Next: Alicia Machado?

All my 25 lb measurements & my Thighs

Okay, so I'm ready to share my latest measurements. Here's what I gained from 157 lbs to 162 lbs from most to least

1.25" at Bustline
1.00" at Bellybutton
1.00" on Neck

.75" at Waistline
.75" at Chest (at armpits)

.50" at Hips
.50" on my Booty
.50" on my Thighs
.50" on my Arms
.50" just under my bustline


I haven't gotten a lot in my thighs yet, but I have gotten 2.25" overall which is an 11% growth.



I also did a couple comparisons but I'd say the differences are very subtle. Also, I'm kinda embarassed about my thighs soo I'm surprised I'm showing them at all!

The earlist pic I had was at 142 lbs, so it actually shows a 1.75" gain instead of the full 2.25"

Thighs before & after
Knees before & after

Oh, and I was back down to 162 this morning... boo

Day 101! Still gaining...

Well, yesterday was my 100th day of gaining! Wow, has it been that much already? And unexpectedly a couple more pounds showed up. I'm 27 lbs up now.. wow

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs

Anndddd a cellphone pic from yesterday.



So guess what? I'm ONE POUND AWAY from being officially overweight for the first time!

Area most gained #3 (from 20 to 25 lbs)

So this is from 157 lbs to 162 lbs still....

The area I gained the most was my bustline..w00t! (1.25")
The area I gained 2nd most was at my bellybutton (1.00")
and now TIED with at the bellybutton is the strange place that I always seem to gain a crazy amount at.. neck! (1.00") ew, I know.



It's strange because it's smaller around yet I still seem to get big gains there! Like you can measure this by percentage and it comes out much different.

Overall, I've gained 11% on my bustline
and 17% at my bellybutton
But I've gained 27% AT MY NECK and 18% on my arms

Belly Measurements (25 lb gain comparison)

So I've been averaging an inch on my belly every 5 lbs I gain and I've gained another inch sooo I guess that's how it goes for me. =)

Measurements at my bellybutton
137 lbs = 31.5"
142 lbs = 32.75"
147 lbs = 33.5"
152 lbs = 34.0"
157 lbs = 35.75"
162 lbs = 36.75"

TOTAL gained at bellybutton: 5.25"

average gained per 5 lbs: 1.05"

So here was my belly at 137 lbs, 31.5"


And here's me now after a 25 lb and 5" gain


Yikes!

25 lb Measurements are in!

Well, I was 162 lbs yesterday and today sooo I did my measurements.

I'm going to sort of give the results in pieces... and they definately have a twist compared to past measurements. So weird how it where it goes changes as you gain more! I love it though. =) So here's the twist this time.

In my first 15 lbs of gaining I averaged a 1/2" gain on my bust every 5 lbs, but in the last 10 lbs I averaged 1.25" on my bust for every 5 lbs. Weird how its pioked up there isn't it? Soo at 15 lbs up I was only 1.25" bigger there and now I'm 3.75" bigger at my bustline. And this makes me happy because that's a place I'm seriously lacking. hee



More on my other new measurements later. =)

3 Months of Gaining Completed! (so far)

Wow, so I've been gaining for 3 months now. November is month 4 and I'm still at it. =)

Aug 1st I was 137 lbs
Sept 1st I was 147 lbs
Oct 1st I was 155 lbs
Nov 1st I was 160 lbs

*Today* I am 162 lbs (25 lbs heavier.. yikes!)

So basically I've been gaining less every month so far which I'm glad about. I think a slow pace is a good idea. *nods*

In August I gained 10 lbs which was the most.
In September I gained 8 more lbs and in October I gained 5 lbs for a total of 23 lbs in three months. That's about 7.5 lbs a month. I think thats good.

If I keep up that pace I'll be 175 by the end of the year.. and I'm not even sure if I want to go that high yet! Although, I think I at least have to be chubby before I stop this. I can then lose some weight after if I'd like to. =)

Oh, and I'm feeling better now. This weekend was actually pretty fun. Hopefully i'll just be on the upswing now. I hate it when my emotions go crazy like that! Thanks for all the hugs you guys. xoxo

Week 13, Day 4: I am no match for insecurity

Hmm down to 160 this morning. =(

My emotional issues have been getting really intense again these past few days. Not sure why this happens to me, but it's happened my whole life. The only bad thing is that I tend to lose my apetite when I'm really upset sooo I'm going to have to try extra hard if I want to gain anything.

Anyway, I'm seeing my therapist on Tuesday and this is always temporary sooo I should be okay and back to my old self soon. But I could use some hugs in the meantime! I really really HATE feeling like this. =(

On outgrowing my jeans... Part I

Yah, so I noticed for the first time this week, that i'm really having to squeeze into my pants! I bought 1 new pair right now and they are probably now the ONLY pair I feel comfortable in..lol Strange how this happens. I mean, I look in the mirror sometimes and its like ehh... I haven't really gained THAT much ya know? I mean, I'm not even chubby really. But I've definately outgrown my pants. I even popped a button on one pair..lol

Anyway, I'm also noticing that i'm coming over the sides of them so I took a pic to show you what I mean.



Back to 161 the last couple days though so it could be a little before I do my next measurements still. I want to be 162 or higher 3 days in a row before I do them cuz weight can fluctuate so much.

Have a great night!

And Graph update of my gaining...

Cuz its been a little awhile... =)



I can't wait to spend time with my sweetheart tonight! We both fell asleep wayyy too early yesterday.

2 more lbs... up 26 lbs now.. wow

I ate a lot yesterday and I guess it paid off because I was 163 lbs this morning! I don't know if that will all stick, but it's pretty encouraging. Also, I noticed that my jeans were really tight yesterday and I was starting to come out the sides of them. Wow, me... skinny girl.. coming out the sides of my pants... this is weird!

And my friends this weekend all said they notice my weight gain now and they say I look better.. that it looks good. They probably just say that to my face though cuz it seems like they are all obsessed with losing weight. My one friend Vanessa was like "Yah, everyone is talking about what a fatty you are now!" but she was joking, and said they said it looked good. I like how I look and feel though and that's what matters. =)

My Weight
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)

If I'm consistantly 162 or more over the next couple days it will be time for my 25 lb gain measurements!

But a belly before/after in the meantime.



I still owe:
1.) A question/answer entry
2.) Charlotte Church entry

I haven't forgotten! i'll do that soon.

Up Another Lb

Well, up another pound this morning surprisingly. I was 161. That means I've gained 24 lbs so far.

My Weight
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs

Also, I finally shared my blog and ff with my girlfriend this weekend. I'm not sure why I kept it secret. I guess I was kind of embarrassed or something even though I've mentioned my interest in weight gain with her and stuff. I don't think I wanted her to know just how into this I am! Cuzz I'm pretty into it I must admit... at least lately.

But ya know, she really was a sweetie about it. She's actually okay with all of it she just doesn't want me to hide things from her! Yah, that's totally understandable. I have the best girlfriend in the world I swear. <3 Oh, and today is our 11 month anniversary together! Can't believe its been almost a year already.. wow! And I suck at relationships, so believe me, this is an accomplishment!

So she has access to my blog now and who knows, maybe she'll even comment in here sometime? =) I love you sooooo much sweetie. xo

BMI update.. almost overweight!

My BMI is now 24.3
Chrissie's (my gf) is 24.8

25.0 is overweight! She's always been right on the edge, but as you can see I've come a long way. =)



I've done this chart before so I thought I'd update it. =)

Week 13: Hit 160 today.. thank you cheesecake =)

I hit 160 this morning! Which I think is an accomplishment since I started at 137. 5 more lbs and I'll be officially overweight and past my girlfriends BMI! Wow.

I know its the cheesecake I bought that put me over the edge. I found this guy who makes cheesecakes out of his house in Slavic Village, Cleveland.. my fav neighborhood! So I went to his house and bought a half for $15. OMG SO GOOD... and my gf ate a lot of it too!



So I ate a piece before bed the last few nights and I'm up to 160 now. Hope it sticks.

My Weight
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)

Wow, guess I need to adjust?

Two things have already happened and I like to think its because of my weight gain. First I went to pick up something on the floor the other day, and my butt actually almost knocked over the table behind me! I was so embarrassed! Guess I'm not used to have more back there?

The other thing was that I actually broke a freaking chair. Now, I'm not fat.. and I'm not even sure I'm chubby yet, but this chair is really cheap and one of the bars broke under me and I fell. You can imagine my surprise.

I was like "oh man, I guess its time to go on a diet?" and my girlfriend laughed. ha

158 this morning. I know. I'm not gaining right now. I have a short day today though so I think I'm going to go home and eat as much as I possibly can. I've just been kinda depressed lately, and don't eat as much when I'm depressed. Sooo I hope it goes away soon!

Week 12, Day 6

Booty growth?



Yah, so my booty was 35.25" when I first decided to gain. Now I've gained over 20 lbs and its at 37.5". Pretty hottt. =)

And are those the beginning of back rolls? My god. I've never had back rolls in my life.

Also, I don't know if you can tell, but I'm not fitting into these pants like I used to. I kinda noticed this when I went to bend down to put my socks on and couldn't because they are too dang tight! Here's another pic of them.



Please don't mind the way oversized granny panties.. I'm a bit low on laundry.. heh

And my belly definately is starting to hang over tight pants like these. How weird.

And my girlfriend kinda gave me a warning sign the other day. She likes the weight I've gained, but she's like "yah, you should stop at 170 because you might get fat!". She literally said she's scared that I'll be fat. *sigh* I mean, am I even chubby yet? I don't really think so.. I'm getting close but I wouldn't even say I'm chubby.

And ya know the next day after this conversation she was grabbing my side real hard repeatedly and I was like.. what are you doing hun? And she's like "I really like this right here" ha.. so I'm glad she likes what I got.. I think this is definately a better weight for me. =)

Oh yah, and she laughed at me when she thought of me having to buy new clothes because I couldn't fit in the ones we have anymore. Silly girl.

Anyway, this is an experiment to me so at this point I'm thinking I'll go to 175 and then lose some till I feel comfortable again, cuz I'm sure it will be outside of comfort zone. I'm CLOSE already, and close to hers it seems.

As far as gaining lately. I'm eating well off and on and I don't know if I'm gaining or not. I was 158 again for a couple days and this morning I was 159. I haven't really pushed to gain lately. I don't know why. I think maybe my sweetie scared off my appetite for the time being.. but I"m sure it will come back. It always does..lol

So I'm still 159 lbs.. 22 lbs up from when I started August 1st, which is still good. Gaining slow is kinda fun anyway. I kinda get to savor it more or something.. I dunno.. k have a goodnight!

Oh and lastly.. in her defense.. she did say that she will definately love me no matter what and if I do get fat, even if its on purpose, she will still love me sooo.. her intentions are good.. but I'm glad she was honest about her emotions because they are definately very important to me. I have to weigh them in at least as much as my own because she's such an important part of my life ya know?