Week 21, Day 2: Worry About Reactions

So tonight I'm going to a cookie party and I'm going to see at least 2 people who haven't seen me in months. I have to admit I just feel a little weird because they are probably going to notice that I put on about 30 lbs I would think.

I even saw my friend Maddi last night and I was telling her about how I'm gaining on purpose, and I mentioned how I look at before pictures and it's hard to even notice anything and she was like, "Oh no, you can definately tell. You look different." and I was like oh.. okay And my friend Denise said again that I look better and that I hold it well, so that was nice of her. =)

Oh well, I'm not ashamed so I just need to be confident. I gained weight. I have curves now. I'm sexy. Get over it. ha =)

169 again this morning. Still getting lots of olive oil.

Well, co-workers are noticing!

Yah, it's confirmed. You can't really gain 30 lbs when you're skinny and expect people not to notice. One of my co-workers asked me today if I'm trying to gain weight. I guess my telling people I was doing it on purpose spread around for her to ask that right? So I told her yep, I'm gaining and that I gained 30 lbs so far. She said she noticed it in my belly! lol Yah, there is a lot there..heh

Also, another co-worker told me he couldn't tell. I don't know if he was being nice or not. He is a really nice type of boy.

I do wish the weight would spread out more though and not go mostly to my belly. I found a study on fat distribution being effected by what foods you eat. I'm going to research that more. Could be something to try! Use my diet to put more weight in my hips. Sounds fun. =) Well, latas.. have a great day =)

Also, I was 167 again today... 2nd day in a row. =) I didn't even eat last night! I fell asleep! Sooo it's sticking. =)

My gain by percent growth

This is pretty interesting. =)



I'm still eating a lot and I was 165 this morning. Wow, 167 and it will be time for measurements again.. my 30 gain lb measurements! That's a lot.

Its funny cuz I met my sister for lunch yesterday. She's the same height as me (5'8") and she lost like 15 lbs for her wedding. Wellll, she's gaining it back now and I just to reassure her that she looks great, even better with the weight back but of course, I guess people expect you to say that. I asked her what she weighed though and she said 163 to 165 and she was stunned when I said "me too!" She's so used to me being the skinny one. She's been jealous of my skinniness our whole lives.. seriously. So she was like, "what???" and then she poked my arm and said she thought she noticed a little more than usual.. and then poked my belly and told me she felt pudge.. ha! omg

I felt kinda embarrassed but happy too. I told her I really like what I've gained so far and she told me interestingly enough that the weight she's gaining back is going in different places, this time more in her butt and thighs... she's still 5 lbs less than what she started at before she dieted for her wedding and she already grew out her new pants she bought after she lost the weight. ha poor girl, but I know the feeling. I can only fit comfortable in 1 pair of jeans and I just bought them!

so anyway... fun times =)

2 more lbs... up 26 lbs now.. wow

I ate a lot yesterday and I guess it paid off because I was 163 lbs this morning! I don't know if that will all stick, but it's pretty encouraging. Also, I noticed that my jeans were really tight yesterday and I was starting to come out the sides of them. Wow, me... skinny girl.. coming out the sides of my pants... this is weird!

And my friends this weekend all said they notice my weight gain now and they say I look better.. that it looks good. They probably just say that to my face though cuz it seems like they are all obsessed with losing weight. My one friend Vanessa was like "Yah, everyone is talking about what a fatty you are now!" but she was joking, and said they said it looked good. I like how I look and feel though and that's what matters. =)

My Weight
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)

If I'm consistantly 162 or more over the next couple days it will be time for my 25 lb gain measurements!

But a belly before/after in the meantime.



I still owe:
1.) A question/answer entry
2.) Charlotte Church entry

I haven't forgotten! i'll do that soon.

11 Weeks Done: 22 lb gain so far

I was 159 this morning.. thats another pound. I'm not even really trying, but oh wells...

My Weight
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)
Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Or lets do it this way...

My Gaining
Day 1: 0 lbs gained
Day 2: 1 lb
Day 6: 2 lbs
Day 9: 3 lbs
Day 10: 5 lbs
Day 15: 7 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 8 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 11 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 14 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 15 lbs (6 weeks)
Day 48: 18 lbs
Day 63: 19 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 20 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 21 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 22 lbs (11 weeks)

Next Goal: 30 lbs

I should probably be there in a month sooo around day 100 which is about mid-November. Wow, never been that heavy before... kinda scared

Edit: Hmmm just got my second comment. A lady from our board and I were talking about diets and I was explaining what I know about calories and she's like.. well, I've noticed that YOU'RE putting on some weight. Wow. I was like yah, I'm doing it on purpose.. my face was getting sunken in and stuff, I thought I'd try gaining for awhile. =)

The comments are starting.... My coworker who was there was like "no no she's skinny.. she needs to gain some weight.. get some curves.." haha I wonder if she'll change her tune after I get another 10 lbs?

I think I like this extra meat on you...

That's what she said to me today! That made me really happy. I noticed that she keeps wanting to touch me and squeeze me, especially where I'm softer these days. =) So nice! And our sex life has kicked up a notch too I must admit!

awww I thought she would not like me gaining weight, but this is turning out really good so far. =) yay!

Oh, and she ALSO said yesterday that she noticed my butt is getting bigger.. haha love it.

Oh, and I was still 155 this morning but that will change soon. I've been eating quite a bit...

Week 10, Day 1: "Are you Gaining or Something?"

Wow, I got my first comment on my weight gain. It was my real estate agent for work and he was like "So are you gaining weight or something?" and then he asked if it was intentional. Wasn't that a weird question? So I was honest, and said, "Yah, it is actually" and smiled. Heh, I have no idea how that come off, but then he apologized sorta saying "oh, I didn't mean anything bad by it or anything" and I shrugged.

Weird.

Anyway, I was 155 again this morning. I'm pretty okay with gaining slow at the moment so that's fine. And I have now completed 2 months of gaining! 10 lbs in August and 8 lbs in September which makes 18 lbs total. =)



I'm definately getting a bit thick i'd say. I swear my butt feels bigger today. I dunno.

Week 6, Day 3: I can tell the difference

Well, I was 150 this morning so some of that spike is sticking. That's a good thing. =) Here's the graph. I'm definately, very clearly, gaining.



I thought I would write a little bit about the differences I'm noticing. I started feeling noticably pudgier at the 10 lb mark and I can identify why that is now. The measurements are showing that my neck has gained 2". That is really significant and I can definately tell! That's not my first choice for where the weight could go! But oh well, its not horrible either.

So I can actually feel the pudge under my chin. It's taking some getting used to. I'm also noticing that my necklace is tighter on me now. It doesn't hang as low.

My tighter shirts and bras are noticably tighter on me. I've gained over 2" on my waist and belly and an inch on my bust so I'm not that surprised. And I look wider in the mirror. I'm honestly loving my belly. It's so much better and nicer. And surprisingly, even last night my girlfriend made a comment that she loves my belly, and that she likes it better now! I'm starting to think she really likes me gaining. She especially likes feeling skinnier in comparison to me.

Oh, and I hit a little milestone. This morning was the first time I weighed more than her. She was 148 and I was 150. I still have 3" on her though so my BMI is still lower. =P. I'm catching up though!

Hm lastly I can feel a difference in my legs. I know i've gained an inch on them and I can feel it when I kneel down. It's a little harder to kneel. I dunno.. its wierd. And I also noticed that I have some fat going under my armpits. *sigh* I swear, it goes everywhere I don't want it to go, and doesn't go where I want it! I'd rather be one of those girls who gets a pear shape, know what I mean? But i've only gained an inch on my booty and hips. le sigh

Its okay though, this is fun. I'm enjoying it.. I guess half the fun is seeing where the weight goes and enjoying the experience of it. Which I'm doing. =)

That's all for now!

Sisters Wedding This Weekend

My sisters wedding was so fun this weekend! Anyway, I got to get all dressed up so I thought I'd share a pic. =)



I'm basically just trying to maintain my weight lately. I'll start on the next 5 lbs in a few days probably. Have a great Labor Day. =)

Oh, by the way, I got many comments on how skinny I am. *sigh* I'm not even sure why. Oh, and my girlfriend says she likes my belly *better* since I've gained. That really made me feel better. I mean, I really care what she thinks. I love the girl. And I want her to continue to be attracted to me so yay, things are good so far. I mentioned gaining my next 10 and she didn't have any objections. =)

Day 29 (Week 5, Day 1): Gained 11 lbs.. yikes

So much for the pause button huh? lol I was 148 this morning. That's the most I've weighed since starting this little adventure. It's always weird when your weight is the same for 5 days in a row and then jumps 3 lbs. whats up with that anyway? But at any rate, I have been noticing my weight as I've been saying and I'm starting to really like it. I thought I looked really good this morning. =) I dressed cute and did my hair and makeup and thought.. damn, yah, i look BETTER.

And my girl commented on how much she loves my belly last night, so apparently the extra 10 lbs is cool with her. =)

I also did some measurements today. I'll do a more elaborate stats update por supuesto. =) But for now I'll just say I got my second inch on my waist already. It was 30" and now its 32". Wow, that's fast.

So more on that later and we'll see if the new lbs stick around or if I'll wake up and suddenly be 145 again in the morning..lol

My Gaining
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)

Day 26: Stuck at 8lbs

So it is week 4, day 5 and just thought I'd update. Seem to be stuck at 145 lbs lately no matter how much I eat. Strange, though I figure it can't last forever so I'll just keep at it. I weighed 150 at the end of the day yesterday and woke up at 11:30am this morning and weighed 145. WTF? How do you weigh 5 lbs lighter in the morning? Craziness I tell you.

Anyways, here's an update on the graph. I'm still way on track. I honestly want 10 lbs every 4 to 6 weeks. That's a nice slow, healthy rate, but enough to be excited about. I'm still at 8lbs though as of now.



My girlfriend (yes, I like girls) even commented on how my belly seems tight and hard, and hers is soft like tofu. But the thing is, I love tofu! =) Sooooo, 8 lbs and I'm still getting skinny comments surprisingly. I can't imagine that will keep up for long.

Day 17: Rate of Gaining

Well, I'm into my 3rd week of gaining now. I weighed in at 142 this morning which is exactly 5 lbs more than I started at. So that's about a pound every 3 days... or about 2-3 lbs a week. That's probably right where I want to be.

I don't want to gain really quickly. I mean, I probably could, but that would probably not be the healthiest thing and I'd really like to try and avoid stretch marks if possible.

So if I continue at this rate that will be 10 lbs a month. That means I'll be at 146 by the end of this month and 156 by the end of September which is my goal. =)

Then I'll have to decide how I feel and if I want to gain more. Something tells me I'm going to want more. I'm just hesitant and nervous. I dunno. Always been skinny.

Oh! One last thing! I was at my friends house yesterday and she was like "Stace! omg!" and I was like "uh what hun?" and she was like "you're getting a belly!". She seemed hesitant to tell me that too..heh But I told her how I'm purposely gaining and stuff and she actually was like "Yah, I think that will look good on you," so yay for that. =) That's my first comment about my gaining though, so it must be starting to show a little?

A girl can only hope.

Body Mass Index

Okay, in case you haven't noticed, I'm a bit geeky and love to keep track of things. =) Not sure why, but I'm owning it!

Anyways, one stat I really like is the BMI (Body Mass Index). There are quick BMI calculators online and its a way to sorta normalize how fat someone is by factoring in their weight. It's still kinda flawed for this purpose because it doesn't take muscle into account, but its still pretty good for me since I have barely any muscle..heh

So I'm kinda excited to watch my numbers climb up this scale (or down in this case). Why did I make it go down anyway? lol Well, I'll fax that for next time, but you can see where I'm at and the BMI also provides an actual "class" for your height vs weight.

So, 18.5 and less is considered "underweight". 18.5 for me would be 122 lbs. Also between 18.5 and 25 is considered "normal weight". 25 to 30 is considered "overweight" and 30 and above is considered "obese". So at this point I am pretty much a little lower than the center of "normal weight". I'm 5'8, 140 lbs and that is a 21.3 BMI. I won't hit the "overweight category" until I'm 165 which is pretty close to my goal of gaining 20 lbs. Wow, I would be "overweight" for the first time in my life.



So I've made this chart and its zoomed in on the normal weight category because I'm pretty much going to be working my way up to overweight. Dont' know if I'd go farther than that at this point. I like seeing things like this though. =)

Two Comments on my Weight
I also wanted to mention I got 2 comments on my weight recently, and they were both in reference to how skinny I am. I guess I've only gained 4 lbs so its not even noticeable and I'm still "skinny" to a lot of people. So my significant other basically said, "Aww my baby is so pretty and so skinny" which kinda made me feel bad actually, but anyways... And a coworker was giving away an extra burrito or something and another coworker said, "Hey, give it to Stace! She could use some meat on her bones!"

Plus, he knows I'm vegan(ish). So poop on him. But yah, I haven't gained anything noticable so far. I wonder if that will change in the near future?