Well, so far the medication is making me LOSE weight..lol Probably not what the reader's of this blog were hoping for. I'm almost disappointed myself. I constantly waver between wanting to gain and wanting to lose, as if I were two different people depending on the time of day.
But, I must say, I'm getting horrible restlessness with this med.. soooo.. I may be switching to a different one. This med typically has the opposite reaction on most people so I dunno what's up with that. Weird body i have i guess.
Have a great day everyone!
Also, weight update.. 158! I guess I lost 2 lbs and it has to be the meds cuz I'm not trying. I like the fact that I'm losing though, if not for anything more than a sense of control over my weight.. sooo much easier to gain than to lose if that's what i want to do!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
New Medication With a Side Effect
It's been awhile since I updated so I thought I'd check in. I'm holding steady at about 160 lbs. I keep having these spells of trying to lose weight, barely losing anything, and then gaining it back by accident. So there hasn't been anything new to report really. My olive oil experiment was fun, and made my skin softer, but didn't really make any change on my distribution as you probably expected, but I don't know, just doing that stuff "to see" kinda excites me I guess..ha So I do stuff like that anyway.
I do have something interesting to share though. I'm starting a new medication for my anxiety. It's called abilify. I know it's often used as an adjunct with an anti-depressant but that's actually not what i'm taking it for. I'm taking it for the more historical purposes of it being a mood-stabilizer and a an anti-psychotic. It should help with my crazy "episodes" and I'm excited. Today was my 4th day on it and my first day at 5mg actually. Which is a low dose.
My psychiatrist did mention though, that one major side effect of Abilify is actually WEIGHT GAIN. It's the only side effect she even bothered to mention actually and she asked me, "Do you have a problem with that?" haha I think my only problem was that I got kinda turned on when she said that! I know I'm weird.
Anyway, I don't know how to feel about that. I don't feel ready to gain more weight. 170 was a little too much for me. 173 actually, was my top weight. I think I hit it back in January. At that weight my belly was a little too out of proportion for me and my face was getting chubby and it was a little scary for me since I've been skinny my whole life and well, I'm not "skinny" anymore... just "normal" I guess.. whatever that means. 170 though, I start to get chubby and that's only 10 lbs away! I'm a little nervous that I might start gaining weight against my will.
I guess one good thing though is that it would probably revive this journal. I guess we'll see.. heh
I do have something interesting to share though. I'm starting a new medication for my anxiety. It's called abilify. I know it's often used as an adjunct with an anti-depressant but that's actually not what i'm taking it for. I'm taking it for the more historical purposes of it being a mood-stabilizer and a an anti-psychotic. It should help with my crazy "episodes" and I'm excited. Today was my 4th day on it and my first day at 5mg actually. Which is a low dose.
My psychiatrist did mention though, that one major side effect of Abilify is actually WEIGHT GAIN. It's the only side effect she even bothered to mention actually and she asked me, "Do you have a problem with that?" haha I think my only problem was that I got kinda turned on when she said that! I know I'm weird.
Anyway, I don't know how to feel about that. I don't feel ready to gain more weight. 170 was a little too much for me. 173 actually, was my top weight. I think I hit it back in January. At that weight my belly was a little too out of proportion for me and my face was getting chubby and it was a little scary for me since I've been skinny my whole life and well, I'm not "skinny" anymore... just "normal" I guess.. whatever that means. 170 though, I start to get chubby and that's only 10 lbs away! I'm a little nervous that I might start gaining weight against my will.
I guess one good thing though is that it would probably revive this journal. I guess we'll see.. heh
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