Well, so far the medication is making me LOSE weight..lol Probably not what the reader's of this blog were hoping for. I'm almost disappointed myself. I constantly waver between wanting to gain and wanting to lose, as if I were two different people depending on the time of day.
But, I must say, I'm getting horrible restlessness with this med.. soooo.. I may be switching to a different one. This med typically has the opposite reaction on most people so I dunno what's up with that. Weird body i have i guess.
Have a great day everyone!
Also, weight update.. 158! I guess I lost 2 lbs and it has to be the meds cuz I'm not trying. I like the fact that I'm losing though, if not for anything more than a sense of control over my weight.. sooo much easier to gain than to lose if that's what i want to do!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
New Medication With a Side Effect
It's been awhile since I updated so I thought I'd check in. I'm holding steady at about 160 lbs. I keep having these spells of trying to lose weight, barely losing anything, and then gaining it back by accident. So there hasn't been anything new to report really. My olive oil experiment was fun, and made my skin softer, but didn't really make any change on my distribution as you probably expected, but I don't know, just doing that stuff "to see" kinda excites me I guess..ha So I do stuff like that anyway.
I do have something interesting to share though. I'm starting a new medication for my anxiety. It's called abilify. I know it's often used as an adjunct with an anti-depressant but that's actually not what i'm taking it for. I'm taking it for the more historical purposes of it being a mood-stabilizer and a an anti-psychotic. It should help with my crazy "episodes" and I'm excited. Today was my 4th day on it and my first day at 5mg actually. Which is a low dose.
My psychiatrist did mention though, that one major side effect of Abilify is actually WEIGHT GAIN. It's the only side effect she even bothered to mention actually and she asked me, "Do you have a problem with that?" haha I think my only problem was that I got kinda turned on when she said that! I know I'm weird.
Anyway, I don't know how to feel about that. I don't feel ready to gain more weight. 170 was a little too much for me. 173 actually, was my top weight. I think I hit it back in January. At that weight my belly was a little too out of proportion for me and my face was getting chubby and it was a little scary for me since I've been skinny my whole life and well, I'm not "skinny" anymore... just "normal" I guess.. whatever that means. 170 though, I start to get chubby and that's only 10 lbs away! I'm a little nervous that I might start gaining weight against my will.
I guess one good thing though is that it would probably revive this journal. I guess we'll see.. heh
I do have something interesting to share though. I'm starting a new medication for my anxiety. It's called abilify. I know it's often used as an adjunct with an anti-depressant but that's actually not what i'm taking it for. I'm taking it for the more historical purposes of it being a mood-stabilizer and a an anti-psychotic. It should help with my crazy "episodes" and I'm excited. Today was my 4th day on it and my first day at 5mg actually. Which is a low dose.
My psychiatrist did mention though, that one major side effect of Abilify is actually WEIGHT GAIN. It's the only side effect she even bothered to mention actually and she asked me, "Do you have a problem with that?" haha I think my only problem was that I got kinda turned on when she said that! I know I'm weird.
Anyway, I don't know how to feel about that. I don't feel ready to gain more weight. 170 was a little too much for me. 173 actually, was my top weight. I think I hit it back in January. At that weight my belly was a little too out of proportion for me and my face was getting chubby and it was a little scary for me since I've been skinny my whole life and well, I'm not "skinny" anymore... just "normal" I guess.. whatever that means. 170 though, I start to get chubby and that's only 10 lbs away! I'm a little nervous that I might start gaining weight against my will.
I guess one good thing though is that it would probably revive this journal. I guess we'll see.. heh
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Olive Oil Experiment II
So this is all set up and I've started. I'm going to take measurements once a week. I have no idea if anything will happen..lol But I love hoping that it will. =) And it just might! I mean, you can absorb anything through your skin. That's why they have things like nicotine patches and hormone patches and stuff. So I'm sure I'm absorbing the olive oil, and I'm sure my skin will get softer (already has), but will the fat stay in that area, or go elsewhere? I dunno, should be interesting to find out. =)
I'd love a bigger lower half so its worth a try. heh
I'd love a bigger lower half so its worth a try. heh
Looking Back at my gain in my face
Yah, so these pics aren't flattering really, but I wanted to see the change in my face as I gained. I started off at 137 lbs in late July and ballooned up to 173 by the end of January. I DEFINITELY like my face better now. When I was skinny it was like too bony or something. I dunno.
Anyway, here's what I got. =)
July 29th, 137 lbs, taken at work
June 21st, 140 lbs, taken at PRIDE
July 30th, 137 lbs, taken at home
March 11th, 172 lbs, taken at my friends going away party
Jan 28th, 172 lbs, taken at the mall before my surgery
Jan 7th, 172 lbs, taken at home goofing around..heh
Andddd here is me now... after a 10 lb weight loss since February 1st.
Apr 15th, 162 lbs, taken after a shower
Hope you liked?
Anyway, here's what I got. =)
July 29th, 137 lbs, taken at work
June 21st, 140 lbs, taken at PRIDE
July 30th, 137 lbs, taken at home
March 11th, 172 lbs, taken at my friends going away party
Jan 28th, 172 lbs, taken at the mall before my surgery
Jan 7th, 172 lbs, taken at home goofing around..heh
Andddd here is me now... after a 10 lb weight loss since February 1st.
Apr 15th, 162 lbs, taken after a shower
Hope you liked?
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Weight Loss now 14 lbs and Comparisons
Hey, so yah, I'm losing weight and doing pretty good at it. I started February 1st and yesterday I weighed in at 159 lbs. That's 14 lbs down from my highest of 173. Good job Stacy! (even though most of you are cringing..haha)
BUT I'm stil 22 lbs heavier than my starting weight of 137 back in fall last year when I was my skinniest. And I have my measurements from when I was 20 lbs up, so I thought I would compare. I've heard our bodies are pretty resilient in resuming their exact previous form. I'm not too off from that except, well, I had breast augmentation so you can see that in the numbers for sure, and my hormone levels are are slightly different now, so that can have an impact as well as far as where weight goes. Anyway, here's my spreadsheet of it.
Some observations:
1.) My neck went back to exactly what it was at this weight last time.
2.) My arm is down 1/4" which surprises me actually, cuz it still seems pretty flubby
3.) My bust is up 2" and 2 or 3 cup sizes from last time at this weight sooo yah, surgery.
4.) My waist is actually down 1/4"
5.) My belly is actually up an inch from last time! ***I think this may be because I measured myself after a decent meal at Chipolte AND a latte..lol
6.) My hips are up 3/4". Yah, I'm pretty sure I can tell. Chrissie even poked me here last night. I remember still when there was nothing there.
7.) My booty still has an extra 1/4" compared to last time.
8.) My thighs still have an extra 1/2" each, which is a lot for the smaller area
Ratios:
1.) So the difference between my bust and my waist before suregery was 3.25" and NOW is it 5.5". So that's increased by over 2". Good! God what I paid for? lol
2.) My belly was 2" bigger than my waist last time, now it is 3.25" bigger than my waist. Yikes! That actually includes love handles which is where I think most of it is. Kinda like that actually. =)
3.) My booty used to be 2.25" bigger around than my hips, but now its only 1.75" and its definately because my hips are bigger.
So I feel like my body is changing in all the right ways. =) I like where the ratios are going, well, as long as the belly number is from the love handles more than the front.. cuz I feel like my belly is too big still!
Oh the biggest change was obviously going from a 37AA at this weight last time to a 39C. Very happy I did that though. I just like my body better. Feels good. Less paranoid. Don't know how to describe that.
I have a plan still. I'd like to go ahead and lose more weight. Maybe another 10 lbs bringing me to a loss of 25 lbs total. I'm not sure what I'll do from there. I am starting another little experiment with olive oil though now, which I'm calling Stacy's Olive Oil Experiment II. I set up the spreadsheet and made rules for myself..heh I'll share that with you soon.
Don't know if anyone even reads this journal anymore so maybe i'll let people on ff know? lol
4.)
BUT I'm stil 22 lbs heavier than my starting weight of 137 back in fall last year when I was my skinniest. And I have my measurements from when I was 20 lbs up, so I thought I would compare. I've heard our bodies are pretty resilient in resuming their exact previous form. I'm not too off from that except, well, I had breast augmentation so you can see that in the numbers for sure, and my hormone levels are are slightly different now, so that can have an impact as well as far as where weight goes. Anyway, here's my spreadsheet of it.
Some observations:
1.) My neck went back to exactly what it was at this weight last time.
2.) My arm is down 1/4" which surprises me actually, cuz it still seems pretty flubby
3.) My bust is up 2" and 2 or 3 cup sizes from last time at this weight sooo yah, surgery.
4.) My waist is actually down 1/4"
5.) My belly is actually up an inch from last time! ***I think this may be because I measured myself after a decent meal at Chipolte AND a latte..lol
6.) My hips are up 3/4". Yah, I'm pretty sure I can tell. Chrissie even poked me here last night. I remember still when there was nothing there.
7.) My booty still has an extra 1/4" compared to last time.
8.) My thighs still have an extra 1/2" each, which is a lot for the smaller area
Ratios:
1.) So the difference between my bust and my waist before suregery was 3.25" and NOW is it 5.5". So that's increased by over 2". Good! God what I paid for? lol
2.) My belly was 2" bigger than my waist last time, now it is 3.25" bigger than my waist. Yikes! That actually includes love handles which is where I think most of it is. Kinda like that actually. =)
3.) My booty used to be 2.25" bigger around than my hips, but now its only 1.75" and its definately because my hips are bigger.
So I feel like my body is changing in all the right ways. =) I like where the ratios are going, well, as long as the belly number is from the love handles more than the front.. cuz I feel like my belly is too big still!
Oh the biggest change was obviously going from a 37AA at this weight last time to a 39C. Very happy I did that though. I just like my body better. Feels good. Less paranoid. Don't know how to describe that.
I have a plan still. I'd like to go ahead and lose more weight. Maybe another 10 lbs bringing me to a loss of 25 lbs total. I'm not sure what I'll do from there. I am starting another little experiment with olive oil though now, which I'm calling Stacy's Olive Oil Experiment II. I set up the spreadsheet and made rules for myself..heh I'll share that with you soon.
Don't know if anyone even reads this journal anymore so maybe i'll let people on ff know? lol
4.)
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Sauteed Garlic Asparagus
I had a request to share recipes so I guess this is my first one. I am pretty obsessed with food and cooking lately so this is probably a good match for this blog, esp since I need to pay attention to it more. Anyway, that being said, this won't help you gain weight, but this is nice and healthy and vegan! if you are into that sort of thing.. like me. =)
Original recipe is here:
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Sauteed-Garlic-Asparagus/Detail.aspx
I joined allrecipes.com and I really like it even though I wish it was more vegetarian/vegan based, but there's still good stuff on there and of course ways to alter the recipes to work for me. For example, this recipe calls for butter, but olive oil can easily be substituted to make it vegan (and healthier) and that was actually suggested by many non-vegans on the site anyway so yay. =)
There were tons of comments on how to make this recipe better and lots of good ideas on how to personalize it so I kinda took the ideas I liked best and made my own vegan versian. I tried it last night and yum! It was really good! I've never made asparagus until yesterday so I feel good about that. I think I can really say that I can cook, finally. I feel confident these days and feel like I know what I'm doing, and I cook often now cuz it's really enjoyable and satisfying. =)
So here is my vegan versian of ~*~SAUTEED GARLIC ASPARAGUS~*~
THE RECIPE
INGREDIENTS
* 2 tbsp olive oil
* 1 bunch fresh asparagus (bend to find where they break naturally, use only the ends with the spears)
* 3 cloves garlic, chopped
* 1 shallot, chopped
* 1/2 cup baby portabella mushrooms
* 1/2 tsp sea salt
* 1/2 tsp black pepper
* 1/2 tsp red pepper flakes
* 2 tsp balsamic vinegar
DIRECTIONS
1. Heat the olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat.
2. Add the garlic, shallot, mushrooms and asparagus spears; cover and cook for 7 minutes, stirring occasionally, or until asparagus is tender and bright green. (if it starts to brown you risk overcooking)
3. Add the salt, pepper, red pepper flakes and balsamic vinegar and serve!
Original recipe is here:
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Sauteed-Garlic-Asparagus/Detail.aspx
I joined allrecipes.com and I really like it even though I wish it was more vegetarian/vegan based, but there's still good stuff on there and of course ways to alter the recipes to work for me. For example, this recipe calls for butter, but olive oil can easily be substituted to make it vegan (and healthier) and that was actually suggested by many non-vegans on the site anyway so yay. =)
There were tons of comments on how to make this recipe better and lots of good ideas on how to personalize it so I kinda took the ideas I liked best and made my own vegan versian. I tried it last night and yum! It was really good! I've never made asparagus until yesterday so I feel good about that. I think I can really say that I can cook, finally. I feel confident these days and feel like I know what I'm doing, and I cook often now cuz it's really enjoyable and satisfying. =)
So here is my vegan versian of ~*~SAUTEED GARLIC ASPARAGUS~*~
THE RECIPE
INGREDIENTS
* 2 tbsp olive oil
* 1 bunch fresh asparagus (bend to find where they break naturally, use only the ends with the spears)
* 3 cloves garlic, chopped
* 1 shallot, chopped
* 1/2 cup baby portabella mushrooms
* 1/2 tsp sea salt
* 1/2 tsp black pepper
* 1/2 tsp red pepper flakes
* 2 tsp balsamic vinegar
DIRECTIONS
1. Heat the olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat.
2. Add the garlic, shallot, mushrooms and asparagus spears; cover and cook for 7 minutes, stirring occasionally, or until asparagus is tender and bright green. (if it starts to brown you risk overcooking)
3. Add the salt, pepper, red pepper flakes and balsamic vinegar and serve!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Loooosing Sloooowly: down to 166 lbs
So I know I never update but I'm still here. I'm alive and I'm losing weight which is actually fun for me. I guess I just like the idea of my body changing slowly over time either way.
I've been calorie counting which works really well for me, and it's been 7 weeks already. My girlfriend Chrissie and my mommybear are doing it with me. We're all losing weight pretty good! Losing weight is harder than gaining so I'm proud of myself. =) I was 166 this morning but I've been as low as 164 so far. I was 173 at my biggest so I've lost 7 lbs so far. I should be at ten shortly.
I keep thinking about taking some measurements so hopefully I'll actually do that sometime soon. I'm going to be sad to see the weight leave places like my thighs and arms and booty but my belly really isn't flattering to me.. i dunno. Some disagree I guess, but that's really the only thing I didn't like about gaining.
Oh, well there was one other thing. THE MONEY. It costs a lot to gain!! and didn't realize that until I stopped. My finances are doing much much better now..lol And I'm even eating probably 80-90% vegan too, which can be more expensive at times.
Soo I'm enjoying this. I'm eating very healthy and vegan and cooking a lot. I've really grown to enjoy cooking, esp yummy vegan dishes. I've been making things like curried chickpeas, miso soup, black bean vegetarian chili and coco-ginger soup. mmmmmm I really do love love food. Always will I suppose. And I think you appreciate it more when you are trying to limit yourself, cuz I'll wait til i'm absolutely starving before I eat sometimes and I swear I almost orgasm..lol
Soo yah.. hi! =) I'll try and keep updating occassionally as I lose more.
I've been calorie counting which works really well for me, and it's been 7 weeks already. My girlfriend Chrissie and my mommybear are doing it with me. We're all losing weight pretty good! Losing weight is harder than gaining so I'm proud of myself. =) I was 166 this morning but I've been as low as 164 so far. I was 173 at my biggest so I've lost 7 lbs so far. I should be at ten shortly.
I keep thinking about taking some measurements so hopefully I'll actually do that sometime soon. I'm going to be sad to see the weight leave places like my thighs and arms and booty but my belly really isn't flattering to me.. i dunno. Some disagree I guess, but that's really the only thing I didn't like about gaining.
Oh, well there was one other thing. THE MONEY. It costs a lot to gain!! and didn't realize that until I stopped. My finances are doing much much better now..lol And I'm even eating probably 80-90% vegan too, which can be more expensive at times.
Soo I'm enjoying this. I'm eating very healthy and vegan and cooking a lot. I've really grown to enjoy cooking, esp yummy vegan dishes. I've been making things like curried chickpeas, miso soup, black bean vegetarian chili and coco-ginger soup. mmmmmm I really do love love food. Always will I suppose. And I think you appreciate it more when you are trying to limit yourself, cuz I'll wait til i'm absolutely starving before I eat sometimes and I swear I almost orgasm..lol
Soo yah.. hi! =) I'll try and keep updating occassionally as I lose more.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Heeere's the Plan
So basically I've decided to stop my gaining. I gained 35 lbs which was a great experience and very fun and I loved it and love the new weight for the most part. The only thing I didn't like is that too much of the weight went to my belly. It just seems disproportianately big and I don't really like that. =(
So I'm losing weight now, but it's probably not for the typical reasons. I've learned from this experience of gaining and I wish now that I had used olive oil from the beginning. I think maybe the fat would have distributed better. I also think gaining fast might cause more to go to my belly too, and my hormones are kinda screwed up, so I'm wondering if that might be a factor too.
Sooo basically I want to start over. =) I want to lose the weight from my belly and this time I can get a lot of good before pics too which I was lacking as I went on to gain more and more. I actually like the weight I'm at, but I really want to try gaining slower next time.. truly gaining vegan (mostly with oil), and making sure my hormones are watched and maybe adjusted this time to see if the fat distributes differently. Plus, I like the idea of dragging this out and I can easily go vegan again! I have SO MUCH extra money again..lol You save so much when you aren't trying to eat 24 hrs a day...haha
So I dunno.. I think I'm going to just lose about 25 lbs over the next 6-8 months or so. It's also a fun process for me and I'm going to take measurements as I go to see if my weight distributes differently at all as I lose. I dunno, kinda fun. Then I most likely will try gaining again this fall/winter. So that's the plan!
I am very much sticking around the community though. Weight gain and fat admiration is a part of me and I've learned that more than ever over the last few months. That will never change. I will never stop fighting societies unfair assumption that fat is somehow unnattractive (curves are hotttt!! duh!!) and I will always be proud of who I am. So there you go. =) I don't expect to have full support on my decision here, but this has always been for me so I guess it doesn't matter that much.
And I'm really excited to see if there is a big difference the next time I decide to put on some weight.
In other news, I really think 170 is a good weight for me. I like my body a lot better at this weight (except the belly is a liiiittle too much for my liking).. but I'm softer and more cuddly and my face I think looks way better than it used to. So I will definately be returning to 170 at some point. Thanks to all of you for supporting during my gain! I will forever be a gainer, so don't forget it! =)
So I'm losing weight now, but it's probably not for the typical reasons. I've learned from this experience of gaining and I wish now that I had used olive oil from the beginning. I think maybe the fat would have distributed better. I also think gaining fast might cause more to go to my belly too, and my hormones are kinda screwed up, so I'm wondering if that might be a factor too.
Sooo basically I want to start over. =) I want to lose the weight from my belly and this time I can get a lot of good before pics too which I was lacking as I went on to gain more and more. I actually like the weight I'm at, but I really want to try gaining slower next time.. truly gaining vegan (mostly with oil), and making sure my hormones are watched and maybe adjusted this time to see if the fat distributes differently. Plus, I like the idea of dragging this out and I can easily go vegan again! I have SO MUCH extra money again..lol You save so much when you aren't trying to eat 24 hrs a day...haha
So I dunno.. I think I'm going to just lose about 25 lbs over the next 6-8 months or so. It's also a fun process for me and I'm going to take measurements as I go to see if my weight distributes differently at all as I lose. I dunno, kinda fun. Then I most likely will try gaining again this fall/winter. So that's the plan!
I am very much sticking around the community though. Weight gain and fat admiration is a part of me and I've learned that more than ever over the last few months. That will never change. I will never stop fighting societies unfair assumption that fat is somehow unnattractive (curves are hotttt!! duh!!) and I will always be proud of who I am. So there you go. =) I don't expect to have full support on my decision here, but this has always been for me so I guess it doesn't matter that much.
And I'm really excited to see if there is a big difference the next time I decide to put on some weight.
In other news, I really think 170 is a good weight for me. I like my body a lot better at this weight (except the belly is a liiiittle too much for my liking).. but I'm softer and more cuddly and my face I think looks way better than it used to. So I will definately be returning to 170 at some point. Thanks to all of you for supporting during my gain! I will forever be a gainer, so don't forget it! =)
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Finally stretch marks pic
Long overdue, I know...
They got worse even when I stopped gaining. I guess my body was still moving things around? I dunno.
Thanks for all your comments in my last entry. It's encouraging to see how many people check up on my blog. =) I know i've been posting less.. but I'm not done!
In other news, my recovery is going really well. I'm 3 weeks post-op and still sore as hell no doubt! But no infection at this point probably means I don't have to worry about that and it should be smooth sailing from here on out. =)
Also, I've decided on my plan for this year regarding my gaining and weight. I'll share that in detail in my next entry. It will probably be dissappointing to many of you but maybe not. Who knows. So that's coming soon. Thanks for reading if you did!
They got worse even when I stopped gaining. I guess my body was still moving things around? I dunno.
Thanks for all your comments in my last entry. It's encouraging to see how many people check up on my blog. =) I know i've been posting less.. but I'm not done!
In other news, my recovery is going really well. I'm 3 weeks post-op and still sore as hell no doubt! But no infection at this point probably means I don't have to worry about that and it should be smooth sailing from here on out. =)
Also, I've decided on my plan for this year regarding my gaining and weight. I'll share that in detail in my next entry. It will probably be dissappointing to many of you but maybe not. Who knows. So that's coming soon. Thanks for reading if you did!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Stretch Marks Update
I know this blog is slowing down and I promise to explain my new plan soon, but in the meantime, my stretch marks have GROWN. THey started like behind my knees sort of and they have now crawled all the up my legs.. yikes! Those snuck up on my fast! I didn't have any before I started downing the olive oil so I wonder if that likes to go to my legs and thighs or something? I hope so! I like the weight there actually.. hee
That's all. Comment if you read this! I guess i want to know if people are still checking up on me or if I've been forgotten yet. =)
I'll take pics of the stretch marks at some point, but then i'm going to start rubbing Vitamin E on them cuz they aren't very pretty to be honest.
That's all. Comment if you read this! I guess i want to know if people are still checking up on me or if I've been forgotten yet. =)
I'll take pics of the stretch marks at some point, but then i'm going to start rubbing Vitamin E on them cuz they aren't very pretty to be honest.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Giving Blood Plus 35 lbs
One thing I wanted to mention was that I used to have a lot of labwork done years ago because I'm hypoglycemic and they always told me I had great veins. They would find the vein in my arm fold very quickly and it would actually be pertruding out. So they could get that one really quick.
Well, prior to surgery I had to get some labwork done and they couldn't even find the vein in my arm fold anymore! haha! She looked for probably ten minutes at both my arms and settled for a vein on my wrist.. lol! They even ran the IV in my wrist because of this same problem. My stats showed my arms gained a lot of the fat and I guess that was right! I'm surprised it only took a 35 lb gain to make that big difference! Pretty cool though. =)
Well, prior to surgery I had to get some labwork done and they couldn't even find the vein in my arm fold anymore! haha! She looked for probably ten minutes at both my arms and settled for a vein on my wrist.. lol! They even ran the IV in my wrist because of this same problem. My stats showed my arms gained a lot of the fat and I guess that was right! I'm surprised it only took a 35 lb gain to make that big difference! Pretty cool though. =)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Back Safe and Sound =)
Back from getting surgery! It went well and I'm just in recovery mode. Here's a pic of me and my sweetiepie from the trip (before surgery of course!)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
My Arm Gained
My arm went from 11.0" to 13.0" since August 1st measuring at the thickest part near my armpit. That's a 23% gain which is tied with the highest percentage gain with my neck.
Here's a before/after pic for ya =)
I really LOVE my arms so much better since I gained.
I feel like pics don't even do them justice honestly. I can tell so much on a daily basis how much softer and different my arms are.
Here's a before/after pic for ya =)
I really LOVE my arms so much better since I gained.
I feel like pics don't even do them justice honestly. I can tell so much on a daily basis how much softer and different my arms are.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
My Growth by Percent
I like this graph. This is how much each part of me has grown by percent. I redid these measurements this morning so this is as of today. It really does go all over me doesn't it?
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
9 days till surgery!
I know I haven't been updating at all. Just been busy. The consult went great. I'm not sure how comfortable I feel talking about this, but my surgeon recommended 400 cc's. I'm really excited and ready. My mom is cute and bought me a bunch of comfy clothes and heavy protein but vegetarian snacks and soups to help with my recovery. I'll only be out of it for like a week though.
My weight dropped to 168 the other day which shocked me. I've been eating well I thought. And still drinking oil and rubbing it on my skin after every shower (it is sooo awesome by the way.. like lotion but no sticky feeling!!) So anyway, I really pigged out on indian food again and I was 172 again this morning. Well, that was easy..lol
I feel good about maintaining my weight. Stretch marks aren't really appealing to me even though I might like them on other people sometimes. Chrissie did notice I have some light stretch marks on my booty too. Soooo I don't think my body could more clearly be telling me WHOA SLOW IT DOWN STACE. So I'm doing that.
Off topic.. I got the new Say Anything album. I forgot how much I love them. =) And whoa.. 27 new songs? Holy crap.. who does that? It's nice though!
I'm hoping to do some more before/after pics, more updates on measurements and other weight gains in here soon. I guess that's all for now.
My weight dropped to 168 the other day which shocked me. I've been eating well I thought. And still drinking oil and rubbing it on my skin after every shower (it is sooo awesome by the way.. like lotion but no sticky feeling!!) So anyway, I really pigged out on indian food again and I was 172 again this morning. Well, that was easy..lol
I feel good about maintaining my weight. Stretch marks aren't really appealing to me even though I might like them on other people sometimes. Chrissie did notice I have some light stretch marks on my booty too. Soooo I don't think my body could more clearly be telling me WHOA SLOW IT DOWN STACE. So I'm doing that.
Off topic.. I got the new Say Anything album. I forgot how much I love them. =) And whoa.. 27 new songs? Holy crap.. who does that? It's nice though!
I'm hoping to do some more before/after pics, more updates on measurements and other weight gains in here soon. I guess that's all for now.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Week 24, Day 6: Hello Stretch Marks
I don't know that I'm excited about this but Chrissie saw my first stretch marks the other day and pointed them out. I didn't believe they were stretch marks at first, but they are symmetrical soooo... yah, stretch marks.
You would think they would be on my belly or booty or something, but they are on my legs just on the insides of my legs next to my knees, but up an inch. I've definitely gained there. My legs are thick there. Probably why I can feel it so much when I bend my knees and sit on my feet. Strange. It's ugly though so I moisturized my entire body with olive oil this morning..lol Feels so good! Don't know why more people don't do it honestly.
I'll put a pic up here in this entry eventually.
You would think they would be on my belly or booty or something, but they are on my legs just on the insides of my legs next to my knees, but up an inch. I've definitely gained there. My legs are thick there. Probably why I can feel it so much when I bend my knees and sit on my feet. Strange. It's ugly though so I moisturized my entire body with olive oil this morning..lol Feels so good! Don't know why more people don't do it honestly.
I'll put a pic up here in this entry eventually.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Stairs
So yah, I've totally noticed that I get tired taking the stairs at work now. Out of breath.. haha Never ever had that problem before. Kinda neat I guess. I guess lugging an extra 35 lbs up the stairs could do that.
Also, 170 this morning. Kinda surprised. I've been eating well. That's fine though, holding steady for awhile like I mentioned.
Consultation for my breat augmentation surgery tomorrow! w00t! I'm happy. =)
Also, 170 this morning. Kinda surprised. I've been eating well. That's fine though, holding steady for awhile like I mentioned.
Consultation for my breat augmentation surgery tomorrow! w00t! I'm happy. =)
Thursday, January 8, 2009
More Pics
Another pair of old jeans, really tight.. my belly sticks way out..ha!@
Feeling pretty chubby
Sexy girl, really tight jeans
Squeeze that belly!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Week 24, Day 1: My Butt Got Too Big..lol
I totally can't even get close to wearing these jeans anymore. These are Chrissie's fav pair. They are really nice.
My butt totally won't even let me get close to getting in those anymore.. ahh well
Also, yesterday I ordered a pizza. I planned on eating 3 pieces (like I used to) and then ya know, guzzling some olive oil but um... I seriously could not stop eating it. I ate 5 pieces and realized there were only 3 left for Chrissie, so I stopped. I swear I could ate that whole thing. Dang. Maybe my appetite really has grown. This might be harder to stop than I thought.
And I was 172 this morning. I'm going to keep at 40% monounsaturated fat as much as I can and then redo measurements every week or two or when I feel like it to see if my fat distribution changes. That's still fun right? =) It is for me anyways.
My butt totally won't even let me get close to getting in those anymore.. ahh well
Also, yesterday I ordered a pizza. I planned on eating 3 pieces (like I used to) and then ya know, guzzling some olive oil but um... I seriously could not stop eating it. I ate 5 pieces and realized there were only 3 left for Chrissie, so I stopped. I swear I could ate that whole thing. Dang. Maybe my appetite really has grown. This might be harder to stop than I thought.
And I was 172 this morning. I'm going to keep at 40% monounsaturated fat as much as I can and then redo measurements every week or two or when I feel like it to see if my fat distribution changes. That's still fun right? =) It is for me anyways.
Myspace Weight Gains
Obviously, I really like weight gain and my personal gaining is going to be on hold for a few weeks sooo something I thought I could do once awhile in the meantime is post other weight gains. All of the ones I post will be ones I found myself unless stated otherwise. I'm basically just finding them on myspace. I really love these..hee It's really incredible to see how people change as they put on weight. =)
So here's the first one. =)
Gain #1: Brynn's Gain
I'll post another one later today and an update on me too. =)
So here's the first one. =)
Gain #1: Brynn's Gain
I'll post another one later today and an update on me too. =)
Monday, January 5, 2009
Shift of Pace
Okay, so I've decided what I'm going to do. I'm basically going to hang at this weight for a bit. I've been gaining fast. It could be neat to see if the weight shifts over the next few weeks.
Sooo what I'm going to do is try to stick around 1,500 to 2,000 calories a day but have 35% of that be olive oil. So if I eat 1,500 I'll down 500 calories of olive oil. If I screw up and eat 2,000, well, I'll drink 625 calories of olive oil. You get the point. After a couple months of that I'll decide if I want to keep gaining or not.
Also, I haven't mentioned this but I'm scheduled for breast augmentation on January 28th. It's something I've wanted to do for forever and didn't for a lot of reasons, but none of them were for me. Soo I'm doing it for me. Actually, I'm really excited about it! And that's part of the reason I want to stabilize my weight.
I'll post more on my latest measurements soon. =)
Sooo what I'm going to do is try to stick around 1,500 to 2,000 calories a day but have 35% of that be olive oil. So if I eat 1,500 I'll down 500 calories of olive oil. If I screw up and eat 2,000, well, I'll drink 625 calories of olive oil. You get the point. After a couple months of that I'll decide if I want to keep gaining or not.
Also, I haven't mentioned this but I'm scheduled for breast augmentation on January 28th. It's something I've wanted to do for forever and didn't for a lot of reasons, but none of them were for me. Soo I'm doing it for me. Actually, I'm really excited about it! And that's part of the reason I want to stabilize my weight.
I'll post more on my latest measurements soon. =)
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Week 23, Day 5: 35 lb gain measurements
Well, here's my gain in my measurements from 167 to 172. I really think the olive oil IS doing something here. Even though I still got an inch on my belly I think it's more on the sides this time (which is kinda hottt) and maybe my back. I got a lot on my booty like I thought and then the weird parts are that my wrists and ankles went up for the first time and I LOST 1/2 an inch on my waist for the first time which I like! I also gained on my chest and lost a little just under it which I also like. =)
I'm stunned I didn't get anything on my hips but honestly, my measurements aren't perfect I'm sure and I gained 1.25" on my hips last time, so that was probably off a little I bet and I probably did get like half an inch or something. And I'm definately noticing more fat around where my arms bend and knees bend and in my fingers a lot too, but I don't measure those things. Sooo basically, olive oil rocks. I'm going to continue with this whole monounsaturated fat thing. Actually, I'm stunned it had an effect so fast ya know??
Oh, and also.. no gain on my neck??? That is rare for me! and awesome =)
Gains from my last 5 lbs
Bellybutton 1.00" gain
Booty 0.75" gain
Bust 0.75" gain
Ankle 0.50" gain
Thigh 0.50" gain
Wrist 0.25" gain
Neck no gain
Hips no gain
Arms no gain
Just Under Bust -0.25" loss
Waist (relaxed) -0.50" loss
I might add a chart shortly. I bought a mac! But I'm getting used to Neoffice. It's a little different than excel.
Okay, figured it out! This graph is probably the coolest graph I've ever made...ha
Let me know if there is something specific you want to see with measurements.
I'm stunned I didn't get anything on my hips but honestly, my measurements aren't perfect I'm sure and I gained 1.25" on my hips last time, so that was probably off a little I bet and I probably did get like half an inch or something. And I'm definately noticing more fat around where my arms bend and knees bend and in my fingers a lot too, but I don't measure those things. Sooo basically, olive oil rocks. I'm going to continue with this whole monounsaturated fat thing. Actually, I'm stunned it had an effect so fast ya know??
Oh, and also.. no gain on my neck??? That is rare for me! and awesome =)
Gains from my last 5 lbs
Bellybutton 1.00" gain
Booty 0.75" gain
Bust 0.75" gain
Ankle 0.50" gain
Thigh 0.50" gain
Wrist 0.25" gain
Neck no gain
Hips no gain
Arms no gain
Just Under Bust -0.25" loss
Waist (relaxed) -0.50" loss
I might add a chart shortly. I bought a mac! But I'm getting used to Neoffice. It's a little different than excel.
Okay, figured it out! This graph is probably the coolest graph I've ever made...ha
Let me know if there is something specific you want to see with measurements.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Christmas Pics =)
My sweetie and I
My Best Friend and I.. I think I look chubby here
My favoritist bear.. baby bear! I love her soo much <3<3<3
My Best Friend and I.. I think I look chubby here
My favoritist bear.. baby bear! I love her soo much <3<3<3
Week 23, Day 3: Busy but Gaining
Well my friend left for Cali yesterday. I've been trying to gain lately and just when it seemed like it just wasn't happening I hit 173 this morning.
My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)
Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)
Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)
Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)
Day 136: 169 lbs (19 weeks)
Day 139: 170 lbs
Day 149: 171 lbs (21 weeks)
Day 151: 172 lbs
Day 157: 173 lbs (22 weeks)
I'm starting to think about what to do from here too. My girlfriend expressed that if it were up to her she wouldn't really want me to gain anymore and maybe even lose 10 lbs. Of course, she supports me no matter what, but I'd be silly to say that her opinion doesn't matter to me. So I don't know. I might stop and stay at this weight for a little, or gain just 10 more, but not go for 200 like I was considering, or I might even try losing it pretty soon. I'm just not sure. It makes me sad to think about stopping already, but we also can barely fit on the couch to snuggle now. Actually, last night was the first time that we couldn't really comfortably lay next to each other and watch House. Sooo that does kinda suck. I don't know.
On the other hand I really like some aspects of my gain... not my belly so much, but everything else practically. I dunno, I'm just going to think on it for a bit. I really didn't even intend to go over 155 when I first started this and I'm 173. That's a 36 lb gain. I mean, wow, I'm almost 180! That's pretty crazy. So stay tuned. I'm bound to decide sometime in the next few days, and I'll post measurements as long as I stick at 172 or higher.
My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)
Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)
Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)
Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)
Day 136: 169 lbs (19 weeks)
Day 139: 170 lbs
Day 149: 171 lbs (21 weeks)
Day 151: 172 lbs
Day 157: 173 lbs (22 weeks)
I'm starting to think about what to do from here too. My girlfriend expressed that if it were up to her she wouldn't really want me to gain anymore and maybe even lose 10 lbs. Of course, she supports me no matter what, but I'd be silly to say that her opinion doesn't matter to me. So I don't know. I might stop and stay at this weight for a little, or gain just 10 more, but not go for 200 like I was considering, or I might even try losing it pretty soon. I'm just not sure. It makes me sad to think about stopping already, but we also can barely fit on the couch to snuggle now. Actually, last night was the first time that we couldn't really comfortably lay next to each other and watch House. Sooo that does kinda suck. I don't know.
On the other hand I really like some aspects of my gain... not my belly so much, but everything else practically. I dunno, I'm just going to think on it for a bit. I really didn't even intend to go over 155 when I first started this and I'm 173. That's a 36 lb gain. I mean, wow, I'm almost 180! That's pretty crazy. So stay tuned. I'm bound to decide sometime in the next few days, and I'll post measurements as long as I stick at 172 or higher.
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