Sisters Wedding This Weekend

My sisters wedding was so fun this weekend! Anyway, I got to get all dressed up so I thought I'd share a pic. =)



I'm basically just trying to maintain my weight lately. I'll start on the next 5 lbs in a few days probably. Have a great Labor Day. =)

Oh, by the way, I got many comments on how skinny I am. *sigh* I'm not even sure why. Oh, and my girlfriend says she likes my belly *better* since I've gained. That really made me feel better. I mean, I really care what she thinks. I love the girl. And I want her to continue to be attracted to me so yay, things are good so far. I mentioned gaining my next 10 and she didn't have any objections. =)

Week 5, Day 3: 10 lb before and after pic

I was 147 this morning. I really have gained 10 lbs at this point so I thought I'd do a before after comparison.





See a difference?

That's a 2" gain on my waist and belly there. I'm liking it so far. =)

I took more pics. I'll share more later.

Week 5, Day 2: 11 lbs and holding it seems

Well, I was 148 AGAIN this morning so I think its sticking around. Honestly, my gut told me it would...literally... the day before last I felt fatter... I could feel new weight on me. It's almost like all that eating I did worked, it just takes a few days to kick in. Like my body had to adjust to the new higher calorie diet? Strange how it works.

Anyway, graph update. =)



I'm going to an all day forum in Columbus today so I won't be online until tomorrow most likely. I hope they have good food! lol

Day 29 (Week 5, Day 1): Gained 11 lbs.. yikes

So much for the pause button huh? lol I was 148 this morning. That's the most I've weighed since starting this little adventure. It's always weird when your weight is the same for 5 days in a row and then jumps 3 lbs. whats up with that anyway? But at any rate, I have been noticing my weight as I've been saying and I'm starting to really like it. I thought I looked really good this morning. =) I dressed cute and did my hair and makeup and thought.. damn, yah, i look BETTER.

And my girl commented on how much she loves my belly last night, so apparently the extra 10 lbs is cool with her. =)

I also did some measurements today. I'll do a more elaborate stats update por supuesto. =) But for now I'll just say I got my second inch on my waist already. It was 30" and now its 32". Wow, that's fast.

So more on that later and we'll see if the new lbs stick around or if I'll wake up and suddenly be 145 again in the morning..lol

My Gaining
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)

Day 28 (Week 4, Day 7): Hit Pause

So I have to admit the last few days I've felt some hesitance creeping in.. hesitance to gain more weight. I feel like i've really noticed the difference in my body and its kinda exciting, but kinda terrifying simultaneously.

I like to think I can overcome societal pressure, but there are times when it gets the best of me, especially when I have a girlfriend who so clearly despises weight gain, at least on herself. I think part of it was watching her nearly have a nervous breakdown last night over not fitting in some old dresses of hers. And she is SOOO beautiful too. To watch her agonize over her body and hate herself like that hurts me... and to have her brush off my comments and not give any consideration to my opinion also hurts. It just was a bad experience.

And I think it scared me off some. I don't want her to be less attracted to me. I really don't. I still could gain that last 12 lbs and see how it goes... just to do it, and I probably will, but its still scary.

I guess being "skinny" (I'm not even that skinny) does get me a lot of attention and compliments and it is kinda hard to let that go. I can already tell me belly is sticking out more. I can tell my neck and even back is thicker. I can tell some pants are tighter. And that's just from the 8 lbs. The one thing I really LOVE about being heavier is that my face filled out more. It's subtle change but I think look so much cuter. I was starting to have the sunken in look which.. ew yucky

So I was 145 again this morning. In fact, I've been 145 for several days in a row now, and maybe that's okay. Maybe I just need to adjust and think about this.

I do have a history of feeling conflicted and then giving into my desires, flipping back and forth, over and over, so I can't say that I didn't expect this... but that also means that I can expect a desire to gain again to re-emerge with a vengeance.

I guess we'll see what happens.

Day 26: Stuck at 8lbs

So it is week 4, day 5 and just thought I'd update. Seem to be stuck at 145 lbs lately no matter how much I eat. Strange, though I figure it can't last forever so I'll just keep at it. I weighed 150 at the end of the day yesterday and woke up at 11:30am this morning and weighed 145. WTF? How do you weigh 5 lbs lighter in the morning? Craziness I tell you.

Anyways, here's an update on the graph. I'm still way on track. I honestly want 10 lbs every 4 to 6 weeks. That's a nice slow, healthy rate, but enough to be excited about. I'm still at 8lbs though as of now.



My girlfriend (yes, I like girls) even commented on how my belly seems tight and hard, and hers is soft like tofu. But the thing is, I love tofu! =) Sooooo, 8 lbs and I'm still getting skinny comments surprisingly. I can't imagine that will keep up for long.

Day 25: Here's what an 8 lb gain looks like

I took a bunch of pics this morning and here's one. It does look like I'm gaining something, but its like, some pics look like i've gained a lot and some don't. I dunno. I'll give more detailed before/after pics when the change is easier to see.



I was 145 this morning. Still just 8 lbs since the beginning of this month. I'm surprised. I've been eating like an oinker.

But I'm just gonna keep eating. Patience is the key, or something. =)

Oh and here is a before pic, if you want to compare.

Silly

Alright, I'll show you what I look like. This is me being a sillybear.

Day 24: Gotta Keep Going

I was 145 lbs this morning.

The calorie counting went well the first 2 days but I had a tough time yesterday and failed miserably. I ate about what I would normally eat.

My goal is 3,000 per day.

Stacy's Calorie Counting (and weight that morning)
Aug 19th Tue = 3,320 calories (143 lbs)
Aug 20th Wed = 3,115 calories (145 lbs)
Aug 21st Thu = 1,850 calories (146 lbs)
Aug 22nd Fri = 3,840 calories (145 lbs)
Aug 23rd Sat = 3,130 calories (145 lbs)
Aug 24th Sun = 2,380 calories (145 lbs)
Aug 25th Mon = 2,840 calories (145 lbs)

I'm going to continue my calorie counting here daily and then just add to the list for a few days instead of reposting.

August 22nd Friday, Calorie Counting
(Note: decided to eat just vegetarian today)
Morning
Coffee = 50 calories
Kit Kat Bar = 220 calories

Lunch
Coke = 140 calories
3 slices of cheese pizza = 600 calories
3 crazy breads w/sauce = 300 calories

After Lunch
Coke(x2) = 280 calories
Sour Patch Kids (37 pieces) = 340 calories

Dinner at Carrabbas
Pasta & Marinara (1 cup) = 220 calories
Salad w/Italian Dressing = 250 calories
Bread = 360 calories
Olive Oil = 480 calories
Sm espresso Dessert thing = 100 calories

Before bed
Pop = 140 calories
Nerds = 50 calories
Oreos (x3) and soymilk = 260 calories

Total = 3,840 calories
Goal = 3,000 calories

August 23rd Saturday, Calorie Counting
(Note: decided to eat just vegetarian today)
Morning
Pizza (2 pieces) = 400 calories
1 glass of soymilk = 100 calories

Lunchtime
Coke = 140 calories
Nerds = 100 calories
Pasta = 250 calories
Bread = 150 calories

At the Festival
2 potato pancakes w/sour cream = 400 calories
7 pierogies = 420 calories
1 Italian ice = 60 calories
1 iced vanilla latte = 100 calories

Before Bed
2 cups of soymilk = 150 calories
2 pieces of bread = 260 calories
2 tb of olive oil = 240 calories
3 packs of nerds = 150 calories
raspberries w/sugar = 310 calories

Total = 3,130 calories

August 22nd Friday, Calorie Counting
Lunch
Vegan Meatball Sub = 300 calories
Coke (x2)= 280 calories
Garden Salad = 150 calories
Airheads (x4) = 180 calories

Dinner
Vegan Meatball Sub other half = 300 calories
soymilk = 100 calories
4 oreos = 340 calories

Before Bed
Soymilk = 30 calories
Coke = 140 calories
Salad w/dressing = 200 calories
3 Oreos = 260 calories

Total So far: 2,380 calories

August 25th, Monday Calorie Counting
Morning
Soy Vanilla Latte = 200 calories
Kit Kats = 265 calories

Lunch
Coke = 140 calories
3 pitas w/hot sauce = 450 calories
falafel wrap w/tahini = 300 calories

Snack
Sweet Tarts = 150 calories
Potato Chips = 375 calories
Coke = 140 calories

Dinner
Spinach Wrap = 250 calories
Chips and Salsa = 330 calories
1/2 Smoothie = 100 calories
3 Airheads = 140 calories

So far today: 2,840 calories

Day 23: Some measurement comparisons

I was 146 lbs this morning which means 1 more lb and I'll have my first 10 lbs gained. =) Then I'll wait a couple days to see if its real or not though, since weight seems to fluctuate up to 3 lbs.

I did take some measurements today though just to see how things are coming and there is definitely some differences. I'll share some of them.

Original Weight: 137 lbs
Current Weight: 146 lbs (9 lb gain)
Current Height: 5'8"

Original Waist: 30.0"
Current Waist: 31.0"
Gain: 1 inch

Original Belly: 31.5"
Current Belly: 33.0"
Gain: 1.5 inches
(this was measured at my bellybutton)

Original Thigh: 20.25"
Current Thigh: 21.25"
Gain: 1 inch
(measured at the thickest part)

Original Hips: 32.5"
Current Hips: 33.75"
Gain: 1.25 inches
(measured below belly, above booty)

Original Bust: 34.5"
Current Bust: 35.75"
Gain: 1.25 inches
(no cup size change though, I think some is in my back)

Original Arm: 11"
Current Arm: 12"
Gain: 1 inch
(measured at my armpit)

..and here is the weird one if you ask me
Original Neck: 12"
Current Neck: 13.75"
Gain: 1.75"

I gained the most on my freaking neck? What the hell? I don't know what that is all about.

Original Measurements: 35AA-30-35
Current Measurements: 36AA-31-36

Sooo I'd say those are some pretty significant differences yes? Plus, I measured these BEFORE I ate lunch, AFTER I went to the bathroom and the only thing I had to drink this morning was coffee. So I'm gaining. Feels good. =)

I can also tell that my face has filled in quite a bit. I think I look so much cuter now. At 137 my face was starting to have that sunken look.. now my cheeks are getting cute again. =)

I'm happy with how things are going. And I ate a big lunch while I typed this! =)

Peanut Sauce aka Calorie Sauce =)

So I made some thai peanut sauce tonight for my sweetie's birthday (she LOVES peanut butter) and I served it with veggies, tofu and rice. This sauce is about 80 calories per tablespoon. Yikes!

No wonder we got full so quickly.

mmmm


Yummy?


Who said vegan food couldn't be spectacular?

I've eaten over 3,000 calories both yesterday and today and I'm going to again tomorrow. We should see some gaining here shortly I imagine. =) It can't take long at this pace.

Day 22: And a pic =)

I think my belly is looking yummier already. =)



I had just eaten when I took this pic, so I'm a bit stuffed...heh

Oh and by the way to see the other pics you can click on the pics label to the lower right and it will pull up my before photos. I mean, its only 8 lbs so its only a subtle change though so far.

3 Weeks of Gaining: 8 lbs up

Okay, so it's been 3 weeks and I was 145 lbs this morning which is a new high since I've started gaining. 8 lbs so far. =)

My Gaining
Day 1: 137 lbs
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)

And a graph of course. =)



This last week has been tough because of trying to cheat my veganism and my body hating me and taking away my apetite but I didn't lose weight, and I'm on the right track now. =)

I'm going to keep calorie counting for a week and see what happens. If I eat 3,000 calories every day, I'll have to gain something right?

I'm really excited to see what my measurements are 10 lbs heavier. =)

Calorie Counting

Thought I'd try counting my calories a little and see if that gives me an idea of how much I need to eat. I should be eating 1,900 calories per day to maintain my weight, and 500 calories more per day is supposed to result in about a pound gain per week. So to gain 2 lbs a week theoretically I should eat about 2,900 calories per day.

Yikes. That might not be easy for me.

I used this Calories Per Day Calculator to figure some of that out.

August 18th Tuesday, Calorie Counting
Morning
Coffee w/soy creamer & sugar (1 cup) - 50 calories

Snack
Cashews - (1 serving) - 150 calories

Lunch
6" Subway veggie sub no cheese - 230 calories
1 Coke - 140 calories
1 serving of chips - 150 calories
6 oreos & soymilk - 420 calories

Snack
1 Pepsi- 150 calories

Dinner
Chana Masala 2 servings = 500 calories
Jasmine Rice 1.5 cups = 300 calories
Garlic Naan 3/4 a piece = 150 calories
Coke = 140 calories

Snack
Pez (6 rolls) = 210 calories
Coke = 140 calories

Late Snacks
Soymilk (1 cup) = 100 calories
4 more oreos = 210 calories
1 roll = 140 calories
2 tb olive oil = 240 calories

Total: 3,320
Goal: 3,000

Day 21: No progress, but making a new plan

I was 143 lbs this morning. I haven't made any real progress lately.

And like I said in my last entry, I've felt the need to reconnect with my values, mainly veganism, and I think if I stick to that, I'll be way better off.

So in that mindset last night, I picked up my book BECOMING VEGAN which I'm about 80% through and the next chapter just happened to be called "underweight". And strangely enough, it turned out to be an entire chapter on how to gain weight with a vegan diet!



So I learned some things from that chapter and I have some new ideas.

1.) They said 2-3 tablespoons of olive oil is a good idea. I think i'll pour some in a dish, and eat it with bread before bed every night.
2.) They said avocado is another good idea. I think I'm going to buy them more often and call my friend Kris because she served avocado with lemon juice or something once, and it was amazing.
3.) Protein shakes. This is the main way I plan to increase my intake. Apparently I can get a soy protein mix. Whey protein is derived from dairy so that's a no no... but soy protein is just as good if not better. I can drink it with soy milk daily and that should make a nice difference. =)

According to the book, 500 extra calories a day results in a pound a week... and my goal is 5 lbs in 2 weeks. Sooo I should aim for about 1200 extra calories a day. I'll keep eating big meals, snacking on nuts at work, and do those other things above and I should be able to successfully gain and eat vegan and healthy at the same time. =)

Yah, cuz I'm done sneaking double cheeseburgers. I STILL felt sick last night. Screw that...

Day 20: A confession

I'm actually embarrassed to admit this honestly, but I've been saying I'm vegan since about mid-April when I changed my diet and started avoiding almost all dairy products as well as meat. I had already been vegetarian for almost a year and was a decision I did not take lightly.

I'm going to get into why I decided to go vegan(ish) right now, but I will say when I decided to start gaining weight, I also decided I would secretly indulge in fast food, which I've worked so hard to get away from over the past year and a half. So I found myself secretly pulling into drive-thrus and getting cheap double cheeseburgers between meals cuz I figured, it would help me gain. Well, I think that's true! But there's been 2 problems with it.

#1 is that I do feel guilty and horrible about it now. I pride myself on my dietary choices and I have compromised them many times over the last 2 weeks. I feel like a hypocrite, and while I've never been one for strict labels (I've always eaten meat once or twice a month anyway, I'll talk about that decision later though), I feel like I really have abandoned some of my core beliefs and values and I'm not sure it's worth it. I even sent in this Post Secret card about it.



#2 is that it has made my physically ill. One day I ate 2 double cheeseburgers and I felt sick the rest of the night. All I could do was lay down. And yesterday I snuck one again and almost got to the point of nausea. Then this morning, I thought I might throw up so my point is.. that this isn't working anyway. My body is not happy with me. A lot of the vibrancy I felt from eating a healthy vegan diet is disappearing and is being replaced with that too familiar sluggishness I used to feel in years past. Is this really what I want?

So I guess the secret's out.

At this point I want to get back to eating vegan, or at least vegetarian. I've always said I would be content to eat 90% vegan and the rest vegetarian. I think its time for me to reinforce that goal of mine. I know I'll definately feel a lot better.. and yes, I know its more challenging to gain weight on a vegan diet, but it's totally doable. I'll find a way if I want to make it happen.

And by the way, I weighed 144 this morning. I haven't weighed above that since I've started so maybe tomorrow. I haven't eaten a whole lot today though on account that I've felt sick from eating crap fast food! ugh Enough is enough.

Day 19: Gaining, but it's hard sometimes

Well, I've been eating a lot trying to gain some more. I should be due for another spike. Weight definitely fluctuates a lot. It can fluctuate as much as 3 lbs it seems. I guess that would be the food and water weight as opposed to new more permanent weight on my body.

I love graphs so I updated my weight graph and labeled the 2 spikes I've had. I'm hoping for another one soon.



Oh and I was trying on dresses for my sister's wedding in 2 weeks and yikes, my belly is definitely bigger. It was kinda scary cuz I know how that probably looks to other people.. ya know, not as attractive. But I guess when I just think about what I want, I kinda like it, though I'm hoping more for nicer curves like especially around my hips and thighs and stuff.

I'm going to gain this 20 lbs no matter what though. If I hate the way the weight distributes on my body once I reach that goal then I can always lose it. And if I like it, well, I'll probably not mind gaining a little more... but we'll just have to see I guess. I hope hope hope that it turns out the way I imagine in my mind.

Day 19: Belly Pic

I ate a lot tonight. Ugh.. full



Here's hoping for a few more lbs.

It's 3am here. Goodnight. =)

Oh, and comment if you love me. xo

Thai Food Rocks My World

mmm another one of my fav foods is Thai food. I usually save half my dish for home, but I made sure to eat the whole thing last night. I was only 142 this morning. I'm really gonna have to try harder to get my next 5 lbs, but don't worry, I'm working on it! And I'm persistant! ha

Anyway, I also like to take photos of interesting city neighborhoods and places as a hobbie so I thought I would share a couple photos from last night. =)

And yum, I had the vegetarian basil with tofu and it was ~*~AMAZING~*~.







I'm so glad I live near this place. We actually have 3 thai restaurants all within a mile of where we live. Yummy yumsters!

Day 17: Rate of Gaining

Well, I'm into my 3rd week of gaining now. I weighed in at 142 this morning which is exactly 5 lbs more than I started at. So that's about a pound every 3 days... or about 2-3 lbs a week. That's probably right where I want to be.

I don't want to gain really quickly. I mean, I probably could, but that would probably not be the healthiest thing and I'd really like to try and avoid stretch marks if possible.

So if I continue at this rate that will be 10 lbs a month. That means I'll be at 146 by the end of this month and 156 by the end of September which is my goal. =)

Then I'll have to decide how I feel and if I want to gain more. Something tells me I'm going to want more. I'm just hesitant and nervous. I dunno. Always been skinny.

Oh! One last thing! I was at my friends house yesterday and she was like "Stace! omg!" and I was like "uh what hun?" and she was like "you're getting a belly!". She seemed hesitant to tell me that too..heh But I told her how I'm purposely gaining and stuff and she actually was like "Yah, I think that will look good on you," so yay for that. =) That's my first comment about my gaining though, so it must be starting to show a little?

A girl can only hope.

5 lb gain measurements

Okay, so I thought I would retake my measurements every 5 lbs cuz I want to see how the weight distributes on my body. =)

I gained the most, an inch and a half on my hips and neck (yah neck, wtf??). I gained an inch and a quarter right at my belly button. I gained an inch at my waistline. And I gained a 1/2 inch on my chest, booty, thigh and arms.

So basically I was 35AA-30-35 at 137 lbs and now I'm 35AA-31-36 five lbs heavier. Kinda cool. =) I've been this weight before though. I'll be really excited when I break 155 because that's the most I've ever weighed.

Day 15: Definately Gaining

Okay, so it's been 2 weeks since I decided to gain some weight. I think I've just hit my second spike in my weight as I was 144 this morning! That's 7 lbs more than my starting weight.

Anyway, I made a graph because I think its interesting. I hope you like. =)



I'll probably redo my measurements now because I've definitely got my first 5 lbs and I'm pretty sure I've gained an inch here and there. =)

Day 14: After Lunch

I took some pics after eating lunch. I wanted to do them before, but I was too hungry! ha! I ate a big lunch and was still hungry afterwards. I guess my appetite has really grown. Kinda scary! Anyway, thought I'd share a pic with the very few people who actually read this. ha



Other than that, I was back up to 142 this morning! That made me happy. Something tells me I'm not going to weigh 139 in the morning like the last time I hit this mark, but since there is such fluctuation in weight, I still don't know if I really gained the 5 lbs this time, though I can see a bit of a difference in the pics and I'm pretty sure I gained an inch here and there.

Once I'm sure I gained 5 lbs I will do picture updates and redo my measurements though. Exciting yes? =)

Body Mass Index

Okay, in case you haven't noticed, I'm a bit geeky and love to keep track of things. =) Not sure why, but I'm owning it!

Anyways, one stat I really like is the BMI (Body Mass Index). There are quick BMI calculators online and its a way to sorta normalize how fat someone is by factoring in their weight. It's still kinda flawed for this purpose because it doesn't take muscle into account, but its still pretty good for me since I have barely any muscle..heh

So I'm kinda excited to watch my numbers climb up this scale (or down in this case). Why did I make it go down anyway? lol Well, I'll fax that for next time, but you can see where I'm at and the BMI also provides an actual "class" for your height vs weight.

So, 18.5 and less is considered "underweight". 18.5 for me would be 122 lbs. Also between 18.5 and 25 is considered "normal weight". 25 to 30 is considered "overweight" and 30 and above is considered "obese". So at this point I am pretty much a little lower than the center of "normal weight". I'm 5'8, 140 lbs and that is a 21.3 BMI. I won't hit the "overweight category" until I'm 165 which is pretty close to my goal of gaining 20 lbs. Wow, I would be "overweight" for the first time in my life.



So I've made this chart and its zoomed in on the normal weight category because I'm pretty much going to be working my way up to overweight. Dont' know if I'd go farther than that at this point. I like seeing things like this though. =)

Two Comments on my Weight
I also wanted to mention I got 2 comments on my weight recently, and they were both in reference to how skinny I am. I guess I've only gained 4 lbs so its not even noticeable and I'm still "skinny" to a lot of people. So my significant other basically said, "Aww my baby is so pretty and so skinny" which kinda made me feel bad actually, but anyways... And a coworker was giving away an extra burrito or something and another coworker said, "Hey, give it to Stace! She could use some meat on her bones!"

Plus, he knows I'm vegan(ish). So poop on him. But yah, I haven't gained anything noticable so far. I wonder if that will change in the near future?

Day 13: Guacamole

I guess Friday was a weird fluctuation but I'm definitely gaining. I was back up to 141 this morning. Soo that's 4 lbs in 13 days. That's a healthier rate anyway really.

7/30 Wed - 137 lbs *starting weight*
7/31 Thu - 138 lbs
8/01 Fri - 137 lbs
8/02 Sat - 138 lbs
8/03 Sun - 137 lbs
8/04 Mon - 139 lbs
8/05 Tue - 139 lbs
8/06 Wed - 139 lbs
8/07 Thu - 140 lbs
8/08 Fri - 142 lbs
8/09 Sat - 139 lbs
8/10 Sun - 140 lbs
8/11 Mon - 141 lbs *today*

As part of trying to gain and eat fatty (but healthy and vegan!) stuff I stopped at a local farmers market on Friday and made guacamole with my sweetie. It's sooo simple to make. All you really need is 2 avacodos, 1 onion, 1 tomato, 1 jalepeno (optional), lime juice, cilantro (optional) and a little salt. Mix it all together and yum! You have a nice healthy but fatty snack. Guacamole has the GOOD kind of fat, which makes it very appealing to me. =)



The other fatty snack I ate like crazy this weekend was fresh ciabatta bread with a mixture of olive oil, oregano, black pepper and garlic powder. mmmmmmmm so good! I practically at the whole loaf. And olive oil is very fatty, and again, vegan and pretty healthy.



Notice a trend? =)

Day 11: 3 Pounds Forward, 2 Steps Back.. or something

Yah, so false alarm. I haven't gained 5 pounds. =(

I was 139.4 this morning after not eating very much yesterday. I guess I kinda wanted to see what would happen. I guess my metabolism is a tough cookie to crack! I knew this though and I'm still determined.

I'm still happy I reached the 5 pound mark. And I'll be there again shortly I'm sure. Just got to keep eating. =)

And I started off today with some aloo gobhi and soymilk so I've got a good start. Okay, back to recording music!

Oh, and that pic isn't me, just in case you thought it was.

Day 10: My First 5 lbs.

Yesterday I hopped on the scale in the morning and was happy to hit 140. But then unexpectedly THIS morning it read 142. WTF? I knew I ate a lot yesterday but 2 more lbs?

My starting weight was 137 on July 29th so that is 5 lbs in 9 days. Seems quick doesn't it? I guess I'll see tomorrow if I'm really 142 now or if its just a fluctuation.

7/30 Wed - 137 lbs *starting weight*
7/31 Thu - 138 lbs
8/01 Fri - 137 lbs
8/02 Sat - 138 lbs
8/03 Sun - 137 lbs
8/04 Mon - 139 lbs
8/05 Tue - 139 lbs
8/06 Wed - 139 lbs
8/07 Thu - 140 lbs
8/08 Fri - 142 lbs *today* 5 lb gain

Changes So Far
Well, I'm going to do new pics and measurements every 5 lbs so that's coming, but I can tell a couple things are different already. Firstly, my belly is definitely bigger already. Not a lot, its only 5 lbs of course, but at 137 my belly finally looked flat to me. It's bulging again now. I've also noticed a subtle change in my face. I think its filled in a little bit. At 137 my face started to look sunken in and I hated that. =( So I think I look cuter now which makes me happy. And lastly, my appetite has definitely increased. It's probably going to be easy to gain weight from here on out, because I am hungry constantly..lol!

So here's a pic.



Notice a change yet?

Day 7: Lots of Eating and Waiting... =)

Well, tomorrow will be a week since I started actually trying to gain some weight. My original weight a week ago was 137 and yesterday and this morning I was 139. I weigh myself first thing in the morning to eliminate any pound or two variance you get throughout the day. So I think I gained 2 pounds and I'm hoping for 3 tomorrow morning. =)

So what have I done to gain weight?
Well, I subscribe to the idea that if you want to gain weight, eat more calories. I really believe it's just that simple. I had been eating a little more than usual here and there but yesterday I really kicked it in gear, as well as today.

I swear yesterday I probably ate about 3,000 to 3,500 calories. I normally eat something like 1,500 to 1,800 I imagine so that was quite a bit more. So I'll give a list of some examples of things I'm doing to hopefully gain some serious poundage. =)

1.) Eating something first thing. I normally skip breakfast, or just have coffee. Yesterday I ate tofurkey jerky first thing. Today, I drank a tall glass of soymilk.
2.) Eating a bigger lunch. I ate a double portion lunch yesterday and about the same today.
3.) Drinking pop and soymilk instead of water. I actually do drink water with my meals sometimes, as well as koolaid, but not lately! Pop and soymilk are both about 150 calories every time I drink them soooo I'm drinking them. =)
4.) Eating snacks. I had an hour drive to meet a friend for dinner last night. I stopped at a store on the way and ate a medium bag of chips, a handful of cashews, peanut butter cups, and had another pop. Then I still ate my full dinner! I'm also eating more candy because well, I love it. yum
5.) Drinking more lattes. I love lattes and I've traditionally tried not to have too many because they can be 450 calories. Well, bring it on now. =)
6.) Eating before bed. I'll be honest say this is pretty normal for me, but I'm not holding back whatsoever now. I'm stuffing myself before bed.
7.) Adding high calorie condiments. I have 3 very fatty high calorie condiments I'm putting on my meals every chance I get now. Soy butter is 100% fat..lol I'm loading up on that. Olive oil is very fatty. I poured about 2 tablespoons is some soup I just had. And Vegannaise is also really fatty. I'm loading that up on my veggie burgers.

And yes, I'm sorta vegan. Actually, I'm not vegan by the strict definition, and I want to write about that and explain what I'm doing with that and why, but that can be saved for another entry.

I really hope I have another pound on me tomorrow morning. Keep your fingers crossed. =) I can't wait to get to the first gain of 5 lbs. I'll take some more pictures and my measurements and see if there are any changes and probably continue to do that every 5 lbs. =)

Thanks so much if you are reading this and thanks even more if you comment! =)

Day 6: Gaining Weight

Well, its been a few days. I haven't really tried to eat more honestly until yesterday. I pigged out quite a bit yesterday though. Kept eating all day and lots before bed too. =) And I was 139 this morning. Yah, only a 2 pound gain at best so far, BUT I always track my weight and I haven't weighed 139 since mid-July so it could be a good sign. Gotta make sure I eat a lot today too. I ate some (vegan) beef jerky this morning and I never eat in the morning, so hopefully that was a good start.

7/29 Wed - 137 lbs *starting weight*
7/30 Thu - 138 lbs
7/31 Fri - 137 lbs
8/01 Sat - 138 lbs
8/02 Sun - 137 lbs
8/03 Mon - 139 lbs

Before Pics

I'm weary about sharing too many of these at this point cuz this is the internet and you just never know where your pics might end up! But I want to share a couple at least.

So this is basically me at 137 lbs.


And this is me again fully clothed. Its kinda embarrassing but I wear a padded bra and honestly, I don't even fill that. I'm hoping that will change with a little weight, but only time will tell.


If you want to see more, I may share some on a request basis. We'll see. Just want to be a little careful. Please don't repost the pics anywhere else. Thanks, I appreciate it.

As far as gaining. I think I gained 2 lbs, but you know, weight can vary so much day to day. I won't really know if I'm gaining for a week or two. I'll be sure to post about it though! =)

Starting Measurements

So I decided to do this on July 30th and that day I took a bunch of before pics and before measurements. Here's most of the measurements of me now at 137 lbs.

Height 5'8"
Weight 137
BMI 21 (norm)

Neck 12"
Bicep 11"
Bust (at nipples) 34.5"
Just below bust 33.75"
Waist (sucking in) 26.5"
Waist (relaxed) 30"
Bellybutton 31.5"
Hips 32.5"
Booty 35.25"
Thigh 28.25"

Summary 35AA-30-35

It will be pretty exciting to see how this changes yes? =)

Day 3: Hmm... A Slow Start

Well, its not going too good so far. I feel liberated in the sense that I can gain weight now and that's okay, like I'm ready to allow myself and even excited about it! But I was 137 lbs again this morning (but what do I expect?) and since I was out on a boat ride (and I'm vegan) there wasn't anything good for me to eat, so I didn't eat very much. I am, however, going to go grocery shopping and pick up india food for dinner and eat till I can't eat anymore.



Chana Masala anyone? It's nice and high in calories and fat too. I think there's lots of oil in it. =)

I've also felt weird about doing this. Especially about making the journal. I feel bad like I can't share this stuff with other people already in my life, especially my girlfriend who I love very much. Plus, I saw my flat stomach in the mirror and remembered her complimenting me the night before. She really does love it, and I have to admit her being attracted to me does matter to me very much. Soooo I guess second thoughts are normal, but I keep telling myself, its only 20 lbs. It's not going to be a big deal AND this is something I want for MYSELF. So I'm going to force myself to proceed despite these hesitations I feel.

Sooo hopefully things will go better the next few days.