Just an update real quick

Keep switching between 170 and 171. Still feel a lot chubbier these days though. I'm always surprised when my weight doesn't reflect everything I'm noticing. Maybe I'm just late with noticing? lol

Anyway, I just got a new computer and my best friend is in town from Cali! w00t! So I'm just sort of enjoying life and eating as much as I can..lol I'm still chugging olive oil.. directly from the bottle now.. ha I'm hardcore bitch.

I'm hoping to get to 172 soon so it will be time for measumrents again.

Wish me luck!

Other than that, fightning my depression/anxiety thing again. It's resulted in the house being a mess and me not having the laundry done. I think things could be worse. Latas.

Week 22: Holiday Gaining-- 35 lbs up!

I really don't feel like I've been eating that much buttttt then again, I could be wrong. I've put on a couple new pounds.

My Weight Gain
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs

Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)
Day 36: 151 lbs (5 weeks)
Day 45: 152 lbs (6 weeks)

Day 48: 155 lbs
Day 63: 156 lbs (9 weeks)
Day 68: 157 lbs *1st goal reached!
Day 69: 158 lbs (10 weeks)
Day 77: 159 lbs (11 weeks)

Day 87: 160 lbs (12 weeks)
Day 90: 161 lbs
Day 91: 163 lbs (13 weeks)
Day 101: 164 lbs (14 weeks)
Day 107: 166 lbs (15 weeks)

Day 125: 167 lbs (17 weeks)
Day 129: 168 lbs (18 weeks)
Day 136: 169 lbs (19 weeks)
Day 139: 170 lbs
Day 149: 171 lbs (21 weeks)

Day 151: 172 lbs (21 weeks)

Week 21, Day 7: Cookie Party

Well, I thought I'd go ahead and update on the cookie party I was concerned about. Nothing really happened. I'm sure they noticed I gained but no one said anything. Weird thing is, those girls are so skinny! So for the first time, I felt like the fat one ya know? And at one point I bumped into something because I misjudged my size through the doorway. *sigh* That happens A LOT actually. I'm so used to slipping through little spaces! But that doesnt' really happen anymore.



We made lots of cookies though, it was pretty fun. Good wine too... and my sweetie and I walked a block and got pizza for everyone. Plus, it was in a really cool neighborhood of Cleveland called Little Italy. It always feels just a little bit magical over there. I yikes. =)

Aside from that, I slowed down on my gaining because I felt like I was growing.. a lot and I got scared! lol Today I was back to 169 though. I swear the olive oil makes me grow but doesn't increase my actual weight as much. I won't know if that's true until I take my measurements again though, which I'll do when I hit 172.. which I'm feeling ready to do. I'm going to try and splurge the next few days.. and I have lots of days off coming up! Which should really help. =)

Also, my sweetie said she wants to gain with me over the holidays.. ha I don't know if she really will, but I do know she can't resist cookies at all! lol

Happy holidays everyone. =)

Week 21, Day 4: 170 pics

Well, seems like everyone wants pics pics pics so here's a few new ones. 170 again this morning. =)



Pic2: Coat on before going out to eat
Pic3: new shirt, upper body pic
Pic4: turned
Pic5: Full side view pic
Pic6: Mandatory Belly pic

Week 21, Day 2: Worry About Reactions

So tonight I'm going to a cookie party and I'm going to see at least 2 people who haven't seen me in months. I have to admit I just feel a little weird because they are probably going to notice that I put on about 30 lbs I would think.

I even saw my friend Maddi last night and I was telling her about how I'm gaining on purpose, and I mentioned how I look at before pictures and it's hard to even notice anything and she was like, "Oh no, you can definately tell. You look different." and I was like oh.. okay And my friend Denise said again that I look better and that I hold it well, so that was nice of her. =)

Oh well, I'm not ashamed so I just need to be confident. I gained weight. I have curves now. I'm sexy. Get over it. ha =)

169 again this morning. Still getting lots of olive oil.

Olive Oil: Not Just For Drinking

One of my friends gave me the idea to rub olive oil on my body too. They said you can pretty much absorb anything through your skin. I didn't realize how true that was until I thought about it. I mean, isn't that why things like nicotine patches work?

So I googled olive oil and check out this link. Basically, rubbing olive oil on you is very very good for you! Fascinating. I think I will start doing this. =)

http://www.naturalskincaresecrets.com/olive-oil-skin-care.html


Olive oil will...

Promote a smooth, radiant complexion
Help maintain elasticity of skin
Heal dry, brittle nails and soften cuticles
Condition and add shine to hair

Seems like it's silly NOT to do it if you ask me.

I wonder if you can put it where you want to gain too? I haven't found anything that says you'll gain weight from putting it on your skin though.

Things I've Noticed Since Gaining

I've been meaning to make this post for awhile. I just want to keep track of things I notice cuz out of nowhere I sometimes realize things or notice things that have changed from my gaining and I dunno, it's kinda cool... most of the time anyway!

Things I've Noticed So Far:

1.) My hands have grown. My ring wouldn't fit on my ring finger anymore and I had to switch it to my pinky. It's also harder to bend my fingers all the way. I can feel new fat in the way! Also, veins used to show on the top of my hands sometimes and now they don't at all, which is nice. I just noticed this in the last week.

2.) My butt is bigger. Underwear is fitting differently and when I walk, it feels much different. Gotta say I like it though! One thing that might be kinda gross though, is I definitely sweat in my crack more now though.. ha

3.) My thighs are rubbing together when I walk. It gets sweatier in there now too.

4.) All of my old pants are too tight on me now..lol I have 2 new pairs of pants right now that I can wear comfortably.

5.) My arms are thicker too. There is new fat under my armpits and on my arm in the same area. Also, I used to have really athletic skinny arms and sometimes the viens would show there and definitely muscle definition, but now you don't ever see veins and they aren't as muscular. Oh, and when I bend them I can really tell! The crease is more defined and the new fat pushes off to the side.

That's all on that for now. =)

I was 168 this morning again. I swear it's the weirdest thing, because I can tell that I'm fatter without a doubt, but my weight stays the same or even goes down if I don't eat a lot. I guess this is how olive oil does it? Anyway, I didn't much the last couple days so I think I'm going to go for 3,500 again today with 1,500 of that being monounsaturated fat. I'll keep track of my calories in this entry.

PB sandwich = 345 cal (100 mono fat)

**lost track but I think I ended up around 3,000