Sisters Wedding This Weekend

My sisters wedding was so fun this weekend! Anyway, I got to get all dressed up so I thought I'd share a pic. =)



I'm basically just trying to maintain my weight lately. I'll start on the next 5 lbs in a few days probably. Have a great Labor Day. =)

Oh, by the way, I got many comments on how skinny I am. *sigh* I'm not even sure why. Oh, and my girlfriend says she likes my belly *better* since I've gained. That really made me feel better. I mean, I really care what she thinks. I love the girl. And I want her to continue to be attracted to me so yay, things are good so far. I mentioned gaining my next 10 and she didn't have any objections. =)

Week 5, Day 3: 10 lb before and after pic

I was 147 this morning. I really have gained 10 lbs at this point so I thought I'd do a before after comparison.





See a difference?

That's a 2" gain on my waist and belly there. I'm liking it so far. =)

I took more pics. I'll share more later.

Week 5, Day 2: 11 lbs and holding it seems

Well, I was 148 AGAIN this morning so I think its sticking around. Honestly, my gut told me it would...literally... the day before last I felt fatter... I could feel new weight on me. It's almost like all that eating I did worked, it just takes a few days to kick in. Like my body had to adjust to the new higher calorie diet? Strange how it works.

Anyway, graph update. =)



I'm going to an all day forum in Columbus today so I won't be online until tomorrow most likely. I hope they have good food! lol

Day 29 (Week 5, Day 1): Gained 11 lbs.. yikes

So much for the pause button huh? lol I was 148 this morning. That's the most I've weighed since starting this little adventure. It's always weird when your weight is the same for 5 days in a row and then jumps 3 lbs. whats up with that anyway? But at any rate, I have been noticing my weight as I've been saying and I'm starting to really like it. I thought I looked really good this morning. =) I dressed cute and did my hair and makeup and thought.. damn, yah, i look BETTER.

And my girl commented on how much she loves my belly last night, so apparently the extra 10 lbs is cool with her. =)

I also did some measurements today. I'll do a more elaborate stats update por supuesto. =) But for now I'll just say I got my second inch on my waist already. It was 30" and now its 32". Wow, that's fast.

So more on that later and we'll see if the new lbs stick around or if I'll wake up and suddenly be 145 again in the morning..lol

My Gaining
Day 1: 137 lbs *start*
Day 2: 138 lbs
Day 6: 139 lbs (1 week)
Day 9: 140 lbs
Day 10: 142 lbs
Day 15: 144 lbs (2 weeks)
Day 22: 145 lbs (3 weeks)
Day 29: 148 lbs (4 weeks)

Day 28 (Week 4, Day 7): Hit Pause

So I have to admit the last few days I've felt some hesitance creeping in.. hesitance to gain more weight. I feel like i've really noticed the difference in my body and its kinda exciting, but kinda terrifying simultaneously.

I like to think I can overcome societal pressure, but there are times when it gets the best of me, especially when I have a girlfriend who so clearly despises weight gain, at least on herself. I think part of it was watching her nearly have a nervous breakdown last night over not fitting in some old dresses of hers. And she is SOOO beautiful too. To watch her agonize over her body and hate herself like that hurts me... and to have her brush off my comments and not give any consideration to my opinion also hurts. It just was a bad experience.

And I think it scared me off some. I don't want her to be less attracted to me. I really don't. I still could gain that last 12 lbs and see how it goes... just to do it, and I probably will, but its still scary.

I guess being "skinny" (I'm not even that skinny) does get me a lot of attention and compliments and it is kinda hard to let that go. I can already tell me belly is sticking out more. I can tell my neck and even back is thicker. I can tell some pants are tighter. And that's just from the 8 lbs. The one thing I really LOVE about being heavier is that my face filled out more. It's subtle change but I think look so much cuter. I was starting to have the sunken in look which.. ew yucky

So I was 145 again this morning. In fact, I've been 145 for several days in a row now, and maybe that's okay. Maybe I just need to adjust and think about this.

I do have a history of feeling conflicted and then giving into my desires, flipping back and forth, over and over, so I can't say that I didn't expect this... but that also means that I can expect a desire to gain again to re-emerge with a vengeance.

I guess we'll see what happens.

Day 26: Stuck at 8lbs

So it is week 4, day 5 and just thought I'd update. Seem to be stuck at 145 lbs lately no matter how much I eat. Strange, though I figure it can't last forever so I'll just keep at it. I weighed 150 at the end of the day yesterday and woke up at 11:30am this morning and weighed 145. WTF? How do you weigh 5 lbs lighter in the morning? Craziness I tell you.

Anyways, here's an update on the graph. I'm still way on track. I honestly want 10 lbs every 4 to 6 weeks. That's a nice slow, healthy rate, but enough to be excited about. I'm still at 8lbs though as of now.



My girlfriend (yes, I like girls) even commented on how my belly seems tight and hard, and hers is soft like tofu. But the thing is, I love tofu! =) Sooooo, 8 lbs and I'm still getting skinny comments surprisingly. I can't imagine that will keep up for long.

Day 25: Here's what an 8 lb gain looks like

I took a bunch of pics this morning and here's one. It does look like I'm gaining something, but its like, some pics look like i've gained a lot and some don't. I dunno. I'll give more detailed before/after pics when the change is easier to see.



I was 145 this morning. Still just 8 lbs since the beginning of this month. I'm surprised. I've been eating like an oinker.

But I'm just gonna keep eating. Patience is the key, or something. =)

Oh and here is a before pic, if you want to compare.